Okay, time for me to get serious again... I was in math class last night and wrote this... I love to share, but can't on other websites b/c I may hurt someone's feelings. I hope you guys don't mind.
Here it goes:
What Would I Say?
What would I say if you were here right now? Would I want to hold you tight and say I am sorry or would I want to punch your lights out? Would my words come out sweet and tender or would it be loud and cruel? Would I tell you how much I miss you or how happy I am to have you gone.
The truth of the matter is that I am not happy you are gone, but I don't miss you. I want to yell at you and tell you everything that you have ever done wrong, but I don't want to crush your heart... you don't deserve that. I want to beat you to a pulp and then have you hold me afterwards.
The thing is I can do none of these things. I can not come back to your world because it brings me down. I am happy there, sometimes, but then I become entangled in your world and it is filled with immaturity. I sink to your level and become immature myself. I lose my every being. It is like being pulled into a land where high school never ends. A horrible nightmare.
I can not go back there. I have dreams, ambitions, and goals I cannot live down. When I become engulfed in that world and forget who I am, I become happy yet unfocused. When I stay out of that world, I become even happier because I know that what I am diong is the "right thing." I am free to open my wings and soar to new heights! No longer am I held down by your shackles of popularity and fame. I am able to chase the wind make mistakes with out your harsh judgement. I am free to wonder the world and explore places unknown to me. To allow my mind to grow and my heart to find love.
I am free!!!
