Kiss of Death's blog: "Welcome one and all to the new me....."

Have you ever felt like no matter what you do it's not good enough or that it will never be enough? Today is one of those days....the day that I look at my son and wonder if I should still give him up for adoption or if he would be better off with me. I can't provide him with everything he needs and it sucks because I wish I can. I don't think I am the best mother in the world and doubt myself all the time, but am I really able to do this? I don't make enough money to pay rent or any of my other bills, how am I going to be able to take care of him? I swear I hate days like these.....

I'm not the greatest person in the world but I'm pretty damn good. I raise my son on my own and and have little help from my family. I give what I can to others and I treat most people with respect when they earn it. So tell me, why is it that hard to make it in life? Why has almost everything in the world gone to shit? I've tried this whole dating thing again and it seems like more guys just want sex. Nothing else, no relationship other than sex. It kills me that most guys have made a relationship out of sex. My ex did that, it was more sexual than anything. Hardly any conversation unless we were fighting, little holding hands or cuddling. Thing that girls cherish, it's the little things that count to us. Don't make us feel like a peice of ass just because you want , make us feel like more than that.