Opheliac's blog: "Weeee motherfucker weeeeee!"

so apparently disaronno brings out the poet in me..or maybe my muse has finally returned, im not sure which. but as i was sitting here the words just kept flowing in my head so i scribbled them down and now im going to do something totally uncharacteristic and share it with you all. it was very strange..i felt much like thad beaumont from stephen king's "the dark half". for anyone who isnt familar with it..the guy basically blacks out and writes things but its not actually him writing it..its his "evil twin" that resides in his head, but ends up not being just a figment of his imagination. i say this because i dont remember writing all this down..all i know is that when i was done i had an entire page full of stuff. and im not drunk..ive only had one drink. anyone who knows me knows it takes a lot more than that lol. so anyway here it is. please keep in mind that i havent written anything since high school so i'm a bit rusty and poetry has never been my strong suit anyway. as i reread this it sounds like it should be poetry from a kid still in junior high, basically because of the rhyming i think..hope you enjoy! Beautiful Deception I am not the one who you should try to analyze With deceiving eyes And in your sky of perfect blue You think I'm the one who is deceiving you But you will find when I am gone and you are all alone That your wreckless heart has turned mine to stone There is no pill to take that will make you well So join me here in our private hell Where I feel like a caged animal Waiting here with minimal patience Did you really think that you could fake this? All your lies and empty words Are nothing more than a muted blur As I wait for the inevitable The downfall will be incredible And my heart looks so edible to your apathetic eyes No more lies constructive criticism and comments are always welcomed and appreciated!

DIR EN GREY ARE COMING BACK TO THE US! WOOO WOOOOOOOOOOO. you guys have no fucking idea how happy this makes me. AND they're headlining this one so that means they'll be playing for longer than the half hour that felt like 5 minutes to me at family values. however, im disappointed that they won't be coming to ohio :( that just means its time for karen and i to embark on another one of our infamous concert roadtrips where we will be venturing to nyc. yes i said NYC. MASS CHAOS WILL ENSUE. i am fucking devoted damnit! i should get like..an award or something. i would go to the ends of the fucking earth to see them dude. and im gonna see if i can swing a show with mom too since she liked them when we saw them at fam values hehe. *does massive happy dance* *ahem* here are the dates if anyone is interested: 02/01/2007 - Ft. Lauderdale, FL Revolution 02/02/2007 - Orlando, FL House of Blues 02/03/2007 - Atlanta, GA Roxy Theatre 02/05/2007 - Baltimore, MD Ram's Head 02/06/2007 - Philadelphia, PA Theatre of the Living Arts 02/07/2007 - Boston, MA Avalon Ballroom 02/09/2007 - Toronto, ON (Canada) Guvernment 02/10/2007 - New York, NY Nokia Live 02/12/2007 - Detroit, MI St. Andrews Hall 02/13/2007 - Chicago, IL House of Blues 02/14/2007 - Minneapolis, MN Fine Line Music Club 02/16/2007 - Denver, CO Gothic Theatre 02/18/2007 - Houston, TX Meridian 02/19/2007 - Dallas, TX Palladium Ballroom 02/21/2007 - Phoenix, AZ Marquee Theatre 02/23/2007 - Los Angeles, CA The Wiltern YAAAYYYYY YYAAAAAYYYYY YYYYAAAAAYYYYYYYY *spazzes and flails*

i have a massive headache and my eyeball feels like its going to pop out of its socket. that is all.

Blame the random subject heading on a song from Nip/Tuck. I hate work. I mean really really really loathe it with every fiber of my being. I don't like the new manager at all..she's a twat. But last night she was messing stuff up and acting flustered and I was happy about that fact and reveled in it...I'm such a horrible person sometimes lol. But she makes my life a living hell most of the time so I'm allowed right? I'm not the only one who doesnt like her and I'm glad I've been able to work with someone the past few nights who shares my distate of her. I really hope she doesn't work tonight because I will not be held responsible for my actions if she does. *innocent smile* On another note, I really need some alcohol..scratch that.. A LOT of alcohol. Drinking by yourself is never fun but I've resorted to it almost every day last week..but now that it's all gone I need more damnit. Wow I kinda sound like an alchy. I'm not I promise..I've just been under stress lately and it helps me unwind. Oh well..I suppose I should go attempt to be productive before work tonight..later everyone! ~*Jae*~