Mr Wolfie's blog: "StRaNgE QuEsTiOnS!!!!!!"

So I have been sitting here all day since 8am and thinking... and trying not to think but failing and thinking anyway... and I don’t have any answers, all that time and nothing to show for it! What question you may ask? Well I don’t know that either. Wish I did though, it would help me out a great deal to know just why I am feeling the way I am. Sure I have problems that I am trying to deal with at the moment, issues and other deeper seeded things that I cannot say, so no asking please. We all have our issues I will submit to that reasoning but still one cannot be expected to drop everything just so that they can tend to your needs or whims! We are only human... and as Human’s we are subject to faults in life, reasoning & everything else in between!

As I sit here I ponder on my friends both new and old, my love, my life, my goals... and still no answers to be had... though with some of these things I seek no answer merely a reason. I have a feeling of dread, at first I thought it was due to the medication I am on for depression but it’s not that so I don’t know what it is coming from or why I am having it at this moment with all these thoughts running rampant through my mind! As if I need one more thing to add to the growing number of stressors in my mind at the moment. But this is what life dose to you; it gives you obstacles to get over in order to find that which you are looking for! So I ask myself why I even bother to look at all. Why not just quit and say “Enough!!”? Again... I don’t know. Just another thing to add to my growing Delamere I seem to have grown.

Sometimes I wish I could shut out all the noise and foolish lies people use to excel themselves into this life so that they may feel better about themselves just so they need not worry about the feelings of those they are trampling on. Random thought that one... lol... I used to view life as one big joke but now I know there is no punch line, no end to this skit... it is just one long road to nowhere. I seem to ramble when I’m tired.... I do hate waking up early and needing to think about such complex and compelling things as I have... it is bad for the digestion.

Ah but now I have wondered from my train of thought which by the way is all over the place unless you hadn’t noticed... laugh, smile, joke.... for this sadness is but another chapter in the story of the Grey wolf. Linger not on the pain you read, nor on the hurt and sadness. But instead see the virtue in this knowledge and understand that while you may not understand how my mind is working do understand this is a warning to you. A warning to enjoy what little you have, lavish what little you can and lust with a passion unleashed! For tomorrow is a new day and each new day leads to another until the flames of your eternal clock finally run down and your world turns to silver glass ^_^ Ponder on your time spent reading this, but blame only yourself for sitting there and reading all that I have typed to you. For it was not my doing in forcing you to sit here and read it all now was it? You could have stopped ages ago... but I am glad you read this... perhaps you will find it helpful in some strange way or some destined bit of luck what you read may actually save you one day... for with knowledge come pre-thought.

And with that this is your friendly Fubar Stalker Twisted Wolfie saying... Luck in the shadows & in the light. May you triumph in death!