Lost Angel's blog: "The world of an innocent tease"

So its been over a year or close to it since I wrote a blog... I figured I would do one.. I am going crazy!

I am a new mother as of Dec 3rd.  My beautiful baby Kaylie was born.  The daddy of the baby is not in the picture because he doesnt want to.. He is not helping financially or anything.. he and I have spoken mabe 3 times since Dec.  

I work 2 jobs.  I have to depend on other people to babysit my daughter.. Keep in mind I never really been around a baby til now.  So working 2 jobs and not able to get much sleep..   I have talked to a few guys since Kaylie was born and all turned out to be mistakes...  They were just after one thing...  and just never worked out..

I have been in some of the worst relationships that has caused me to end some of the best ones because of thinking I dont deserve the good.. well guess what I was wrong. .I deserve to be happy... I deserve to be treated right!

So people ask me what I look for in guy so let me lay it out for you..

in noo particular order....

1. has to be sweet

2. Has to be honest

3. has to realize I love attention love giving and receiving. (if you actually care about someone you will want to talk to them daily. .and will always make time for them. even when your busy you will take a minute just to acknowlege that person you care about..

4. WONT CHEAT EVER

5. has to understand I am a girl.. I have my good days and bad days just like you! and I will act crazy sometimes and sometimes I will be pissed off for no good reason just patient.. and know I will always care and will more than likely apologize and make it up to you.

6.  has to accept my daughter as there own and if you have kids... I will accept them as my own..  and I do want more kids when I am actually in a stable relationship!!  and more financially secure.

7.I am a very touchy feely person .. love hugs and kisses.. and cuddles.. If you dont like that stuff.. or not often it wont work out best be friends :)

8, HAs to be easy to talk to..  and have fun with.

9.  has to like go camping.. playing sports..  doesnt want to go out partying all the time...

There is much more that is just the basics..

I am a very insecure person.. especially about my weight.. cause I not like supermodel thin...I have trust issues. from being cheated on..  and lied to..  I do get down on myself a lot.. and get sad and depressed.. but usually bounce out of it..   this is getting long I will shush....