Trixie's blog: "random ponderings"

I sit here on a nice peaceful day off and for no apparent reason I am in a pissed off mood. I constantly hear from everyone around me how horrible their lives are or how unhappy they are with everything. I am quite frankly tired of it all. I try to be a happy person but when I hear nothing but complaints from so many it gets trying. I got yelled at by a really close friend because I never call him to see if he's okay so he deduced that must not care about him. I believe that friendship is a two way street and he doesn't call me EVER. I am the type of person that doesn't want to impose on others so I don't constantly call friends, especially if they don't take the time to call me. If you don't call me but expect me to call you constantly to "reach out" then prepare to be disappointed. Maybe it makes me a bad friend, maybe it makes me a bad person and maybe I just don't care anymore.

If your life and everything in it sucks as horribly as you continually say it does then do something to change it. Stop bitching day in and day out about it without doing anything to make your situation change. If you're making an effort to better yourself or your situation  and you're having a rough day then I genuinely want to hear what's going on. If you're sitting there doing nothing but wallowing in your pit of misery daily and not ever having a conversation with me where you're not bitching about EVERYTHING then I don't want to hear it anymore.

Like I said maybe these thoughts make me a bad friend, strangely at this point I can live with that. I try to be there for all of my friends when they need me but it's doing nothing but making my life a living hell. I wake up and don't even want to get on the computer or attempt to talk to anyone because no one is happy with anything and it sucks.

Instead of bitching about all of the things your life lacks try being grateful for all the things you do have that could if you appreciate them make your existance worth while. I'm thankful for the people I have in my life that I know care about me as much as I care about them and their friendship. I'm thankful for my David who loves me even when I wake up cranky and snap at him because of arguments I have with others. I'm thankful for my family who loves me unconditionally as I love them. I'm thankful for my health, the fact that I have a job when so many don't and have a roof over my head. I'm thankful for so much more in my life but I'm not going to ramble on anymore. I have things to be sad about, I have friends and family members lost that I miss daily, I have dreams I haven't accomplished and plans that never came to fruition. Instead of dwelling on all of those things I'd rather live my life in the now instead of being pissy about the things that have happened that I can't change.