I know its rare that anyone reads these things unless its about sex, fubar drama, or a giveaway of vips or blasts. Well I hate to burst your bubble but this is about none of that.
So go ahead and read my questions and my answers.
"Are you ready?" To which I always reply "yes I am" but in all reality I'm scared shit-less. I have no clue what to expect when I get to RTC (recruit training center), after all I'm finally starting to realize that I'm growing up. I'm no longer the little girl that can hide in mommy's arms as my safe haven. With my hair cut short, and my days beaming with troubles of the world from my own simple problems to wild fires raging across the east coast I'M SCARED!
"What is love?"
I don't know. I'm hoping for a self help book one day to explain just why I can't let go of some feelings and other times I can forget someone just like that. Why do I miss my first kiss so much, is it because he died last Aug or is it because I honestly loved him because he was my first kiss and my first boyfriend? When I see an ex with a new girlfriend why is it that sometimes I'm jealous and other times I'm glad to see them together. What the hell is love, and why can't anyone explain it to me?
"Were you scared"?
No matter what it was or is...I'm scared.
"What do you want to eat?"
I really don't care, I may not be in the mood for anything particular but I could go for just about anything.
"Do you love me?"
I don't even know what love is.
"Why so afraid?"
New experiences, there is always some fear in my soul.
"Do you believe in a higher power?"
Yes but I'm not sure what exactly it is.
"Do you believe in God?"
Sorta, but its hard to believe one mastermind created life and planets and everything, I guess God is just a life mystery.
"Do you want to go on birth control?"
No mom, stop nagging me. I'm not going to try to get knocked up anytime soon.
"Are you okay?"
Yes I am, does my silence bother you?
"Who?"
said the owl
"What?"
said the coyote
"When?"
said the boy
"Where?"
cried the girl
"Why"
cried the murdered
"How"
asked the cop
"Am I bothering you?"
No but your overly enthusiast questions are.
"Are you ready?"
Always Ready.
