EXCITE's blog: "Today...."

First off this is a social site, your gonna have those that play games and tell you one thing and do another its just like life. If you have to be 2 and get pissed of because this one chooses to leave your current location and go, then thats on them not the other place, because honestly if they were happy there they wouldn't have left the first one in the first place, get the fuck over it. But to tell someone that your not gonna be friends with them if they work here or there thats petty and bullshit. What lounges and Mafia members/players do has nothing to do with there members or even other staff. Cause if your gonna judge me, then you weren't honestly my friend in the first place, and should go, personally this site has no reflection on REAL life. Those that sit here 24/7 need to step up and get a job and a life. Take the drama up with them not me. Cause some of us don't play games or lie, life is too short to be petty. I am still gonna go to bed with a clear conscious. Get my point yea I am a bitch.  So Point is if you make me choose you might not like the outcome because true friends are rare but yes there are some on here even. 

 

Thanks, 

Excite aka Chris

As I talked with my trainer last night. Came to realize a lot of things in my life have to change besides how I work out or eat. My habits and what I do and how trusting I am. I will not be on much, with seeing my trainer for lessons when possible and going to the gym for my work out classes which are kicking my butt. First and foremost I need to distance myself from those that tell me one thing and do other stuff just do tired of the lies. They really need to make up there mind, my feelings are not a game. So what ever just gives me the incentive to do what has to be done ME......... have lots of hopes for the future and I don't know where that may lead. Leave me messages when I get on here to do my job i will respond to them. Good Luck all much love Chris.

It's time to get back to me and who I really am and finish my accomplishments and move out and onward with my life!!! No that does not mean I know which guy that may be with or where that road may lead me all I know is that it probably wont be here. I am ready to start a new life and walk out of my old fears and regrets that have happened in my life. Give me strength to do what my heart leads me to do. Chris P.s thank you to all of you that has stood by me and that has just let me vent or cry on your shoulder rather it was on my cell or home phone a select few of you know my telephone number and home address and have the personal invite to call or drop by anytime, those people are my true friends and I would do anything for. So remember life is what it is, nothing more nothing less. But I am tired of being scared of being used or hurt, that I miss out on the one good thing that can happen in my life. When that one person or thing walks in my life I will most definitely hang on for dear life and give all I have because that is who I am. I am a stand by your man and love him for who he is not what he has. So live life to its fullest with no regrets, life is really too short to regret and feel sorry for yourself or to be scared that something wont work, because I have learned that things don't work because you don't want them to work. :) and big hugs Thanks.

Never Have I Fallen Your lips speak soft sweetness Your touch a cool caress I am lost in your magic My heart beats within your chest I think of you each morning And dream of you each night I think of your arms being around me And cannot express my delight Never have I fallen But I am quickly on my way You hold a heart in your hands That has never before been given away __________________________________________ Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength, pleads no excuse of impossibility... It is therefore able to undertake all things, and it completes many things, and warrants them to take effect, where he who does not love would faint and lie down. Love is watchful and sleeping, in a slumber. Though weary, it is not tired; though pressed, it is not straitened; though alarmed, it is not confounded... If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you. Some day I might find this again in my life for now I am content that I don't.

Well as days come and go and sometimes in your life realize that they are sometimes harder than they were past the day it happened. For you that don't know me today my husband died 4 years ago. No matter how hard I tried to save him I couldn't he died in front of me. Though my marriage was hell he was my life. I so just hate today. So for those of you that see me in the Red Dragon and I am not saying much you know why... Thanks to those that cared enough to ask and make sure I was ok. Chris