Irishtoad's blog: "to my friends..."

wow an interesting day. I keep finding more depth to myself and its kinda strange. I was sitting here wondering how people are cruel and out of the blue someone just shows kindness for no reason. It got me thinking of how I have been to some people. Maybe short fused sometimes but other times i can be the upbeat cheerful bastard i usually am. I just hate the way society is going these days. Out for themselves, hateful, and makes me feel hopeless about the future for all of us. Love is not as mysterious as some believe. I think whats more mysterious is the way alot of people use it to get what they want, and how they can use it to keep others hanging on. I have often been screwed over, but im not giving up on it yet. I know its there for me and ill die waiting for it to show its true face. Why cant we be each others saviors instead of looking to an empty sky for it? Why do we have to hate in order to be happy? When will we learn that its ok to let go? Hope i find at least one answer soon....

I find myself in a strange place I don't want to be in. Lately i've been isolated and thats fine usually but without the love and affection I thrive on, its a very cold and lonely place. I've been single for 8 yrs. now and dating random women is not only old but not at all satisfying. One man, one woman, that's how it's suppose to be is'nt it? That's all I can think about lately. Seems like that's an impossible dream for someone who's 35 and whos car broke down...grrrr. Oh well, I guess it'll find me. I'm so tired of waiting...

Confusious say; Man who stand on toilet, high on pot

About me. Not sure how much good this’ll do but I want to put it out there for people who are actually interested in who I am. The shit on my page is just an introduction obviously. This is more in depth. No, I don’t believe in god. I’m more interested in an older belief system. Call it what you will, I don’t care. Just don’t ever call me a Christian. There’s more at work in this universe than one supreme being. If anyone came along and said they were the son of god now we’d just throw them in the puzzle factory. (The loony bin for those who don’t know what I’m talking about.) Yes, I’m a musician, artist, and poet. No I don’t let just anyone see or hear what I do. I don’t need the attention to be complete. I do it for me. Now my opinion on the other hand, I’ll shout that shit from the rooftops, lol. Good friends are hard to come by. I’m desperately searching for someone who shares my views and passions. Why? Because being alone is okay most of the time but solitude isn’t always a good idea. Coffee anyone? Vandie? lol. Anyways. Self loathing is a part of life. Shit happens and people let you know just how small you really are. Sometimes it sinks in and stays with you. It’s sad but true. Fuck them fucking fuckers. Then again I think they’re the pathetic ones. The need to down someone else to feel better about themselves, I’ll never do it again. I’m a dark individual, yes. But I do have a reason for it and a need to be that way. I personally call it normal but society makes it a bad thing. I look deeper than ever now. The exterior may look good but they’re the ones I find ugly. Self-centeredness makes me sick, looking at people like they’re a piece of shit. You people can die a horrible death and I wouldn’t be too terribly sad. Rude? So! I know I’m nothing special. Yes I know that. My opinions are just that. You don’t have to believe it, but if I make just one person think, my job in this world is done. I could go on forever, but for now, I’m done. So let me know what you think if you want to. Till I see you again..later

Wow where do I begin? Ladies, I love ya but you gotta slow down on this idea that your naked pictures are a good idea. This isn’t spring break where no-one you know is going to see it. Isn’t it possible that more than just random people are looking at you. How would daddy feel. Grandma isn’t proud. I love woman and I’m thankful everyday for you beautiful people. Try showing that you’re beautiful between the ears too. Sure your thoughts may not get rated as much as your boobs but at least you’ll have your dignity. Sure I may sound like a churchy, conservative piece of shit but, I don’t believe in one godlike person, I hate that idea actually. I’m all about self expression but that’s not what that is. You’re just showing a bunch of men, more pig like than you realize, what they, in all their selfishness, think they deserve. Who are they? They’re people who spend most of their time tying you into knots one minute and saying those 3 little words the next. Then you forgive them and You show them they’ve got you right where they want you. I’m not saying that’s okay, it’s sad but who’s to blame? I am surprised at my feelings on this because I’m guilty of checking you sexy people out. I’m just noticing that the shit is running wild. Where’s the line? Anyways, I’m done. At least think about it and be safe.

hell hath no fury like a fat dude that lost his porn... judge ye not lest ye be bitch slapped...

just wanted to let u know i changed my profile info. just some insight to who i really am...so here it is First let me say hey to my friends and let them know yes my shit in this particular space has changed but im still the fun lovin moron u grew to love, or at least tolerate…lol.. Im not going to hit on woman just because you have nudie pics. Im an artist and appreciate the female form without wanting to f*ck it. I could use friends not ex-f*ck buddies, I have enough of them. What I do need is friends that I can open up to and get honest feedback from. They can expect the same. Imagine that, a male point of view without the opportunism that usually follows. Yes that’s a big reason we listen, if youre hot, we wanna be there in case you put out. Any man that says that’s wrong is probably trying to get into your pants right now. And no im not playng the sensitive role to get laid either. That is a tired idea. I enjoy deep thought and relaxation without trying to impress someone. Don’t get me wrong, I am sexual but not to just anyone that offers. Without emotion sex to me is just another 3 letter word. Im as real as it gets. There is no hidden meanings or any need to debate on where you fit in with me. Friends, no strings, just honesty.