hB's blog: "This Is About Me!"

Alright, wow I havent posted one of these Fuckers in a grip! Well shit nothing has really happened. Got a job, lost it. Still going to school and waiting for more info on extern. Had 2 relationships in 2007 and both of those went down hill. Anyways, shit happens but we move on right? I have a good feeling about this year though. That this year is going to be the one the shapes and changes my eternal being.

Right now my mind is a mess. I have so much going on that I know where to start, just dont know how to explain it. I am done with school and hopefully onto my externship in a week. One week. That is major. I am flying thru this last class. I just have to do my Emergency Final on March 8th, then I am free to my own devices. School is not my biggest stress at the moment. But my relationship is just flailing around out in the middle of no where. And I do mean No Where. I dont know whats really going on with me and Steven. I love him, I do. I have wanted to date him since I was 17. I guess I am just getting stressed and giving up. I think after school is done I will go back to normal and hopefully get more sleep to make me feel "sane". I also feel horrid for talking to my Ex-Fiance Matthew yesterday. He IM'ed me on yahoo and thinking nothing of it, I started to talk to him. I was actually cival towards him, which was surprising. I really just wanted to ask him, "Why did you cheat on me? Did you feel better after you left the best thing in your life? Did you know that you have fucked me up for life?" And he has fucked me up for life. I was truly in love with him and he just went behind my back and cheated on me. He was and is the hardest thing to get over. I guess the reason why I talked to him was to get closure I guess. I think I will truly get closure from him is when I make him feel as shitty as I did. I dont care what people say about anything I say or do. I do love my boyfriend, I love my mom and my horrid asshole of a father. And I love my friends. My friends are my family. I dont care about my "suppossed" cousins. They are blood and I love them but I dont love them Love them. They are never around and that reason Is because my mom doesnt like her sister so my immediate family tree has changed in my eyes. I am just really tired of people saying that I dont care and that I am not appreciative of what other people do for me. Well listen here Fuckers, I AM! Call me spoiled, a bitch, whatever. You are just hating cus you dont have what I do. Bitches. One Love Yo, ~*SheaBunny*~

Hmm, well today was today. Thats all I can really say. I mean I took my test and everything and I got an A on it, but today just feels blah and meh all rolled into one. So when I am about ready to leave early, I get a call from the Bf and he says that people are bitching and making up things about him at work and telling his boss the false "information". So he was pissed about that and I guess last night him and his brother got into a fight and his brother threw his cell phone at his face and it hit him in the jaw, so we might have to go to the hospital later to see whats going on with that. That reminds me that I have to go get my TB test checked some time after 4pm and I have to turn in some more paper work to Human Resources at Banner Estrella. There is no rest for the weary. And when I finally got home, I got my Baby Shower invitation form my old friend from H.S., Heather. I cant wait cus I love babies but I cant really stand the baby showers cus for some reason all the other females there look at me funny. Talking about staring, I wore my jeans that my BF just loves and let me tell you, so much attention! ;)And I dont blame them! Cus yesterday when me and my Wife went shopping, we tried on dresses and Yeah that thing in back of me, Myass, does fucking stand out! White girl with Ass, coming thru! LOL! Well I am going to go and eat something and maybe take a nap before I have to go and shit like that.

Alrighty this is my first blog on this fucker and I am just going to spill whatever cus on MyWaste I have people that I dont fucking like trying to look at my shit and on here atleast I know who is looking at it and all ya'll are cool with me, so far. LOL! The only things that have been really going on is that I have been in the process of getting a volunteer job at Banner Estrella so that when I finally graduate and become a ST that it will be easier for me to get a job. All I can say is that it is a long drawn out process. TB this and paperwork that has all I have been hearing since the end of August. >OH, tomorrow I have to go back and have them read my TB #2 some time after 4 pm!< I mean I dont mind the paperwork and the tests that you have to take after you read all the manuals, its just the blood draws and TB's that bug me cus I am not too fond of needles. God, thats weird cus I have 3 tattoos and I want more! LOL! God, I feel like a walking contradiction! Oh well, I will spew more when I come back on break cus right now I have to go to class and act like I am interested even though I know that I am leaving early. They should be damn thankful that I even came. Cus this morning I even told my mom that I wasnt going and then I decided that I had to suck it up and get over myself. Spewing more later! Hasta! Alright I can back to bitch some more, LOL. Its about 8:34 AZ time and I just got finished calling the BF who never seems to pick up fast enough to my liking. I guess as my instuctor whould say, "persnickety". LOL. Funny word but I guess it means means like aggitated easily, IDK. New word and a new day I assume. As I was coming to school today I noticed that the sun has been shining its hideous face more in my eyes these last few days. Maybe its because my mother cant seem to get off her ass and get me to school by 6:30. Or maybe it is finally the end of this season and hopefully I can bid the heat good bye till next April. But who am I kidding. Its funny how we seem to look forward to one season and then to the next. When its winter we wish it was spring and when its summer we wish it was fall. I dont get it. Maybe it proves that human beings cant really make up thier minds and that there really is no hope for us in the end. As I sit here I look at the place where they stuck me to give me my TB test. God, I need more sun light on this pasty pale tale, LOL. I wish that I could be one of those lucky people who tan as easy as Alison is a whore, LOL! >Personal Joke< But then I think that I am lucky to really just be me. Plain old Shea.