Why is it when things go up it always comes back down. last night i hurt someone that is the greatest person on this earth and yes i did blog about it. i know it was for the best for me to be honest but why does it have to hurt so bad.. I know myself i can't move on with anything in my life till i start to respect and love me.. I have to work on myself to be able to give my all to anyone. I am even short changing my kids cause i am so stressed out and worried about things. I need to slow myself down and get me back on track.. And it the long run me needing to do that has hurt that person. I wish it was easy enough that things didnt happen this way but i can't help it. There is no way i can get things worked through if i dont take the time for myself. I just had to hurt people its never my intention but i do.. I feel i am toxic and if i am ever gonna be able to stop giving up and all i need to start working. I know i am just rambling here.. But i just had to say all this. I had to get it out of my head.
