If my week hasn't been fucked up enough from bullshit liars to working my ass off to just being down right lonely today has topped it off for me.
Ok so i went out to dinner with my family. We were there eating and something told me to look up and low and behold i do and i see Samanthas sperm donor walk in. And to top it off he was with his wife who he was seperated from when i got pregnant and was the reason he has never wanted anything to do with her cause he didnt want the wife to know that while they were seperated he knocked a girl up.. Well After a YEAR A FUCKING YEAR HE SEE'S HIS DAUGHTER FROM A DISTANCE. He had my duaghters half brother and sister whom she will never know cause of him with him too. It really hit me hard cause i didnt realize till tonight how much my duaghter actually looks like this man. It breaks my heart no not cause i want to be with him but because she has siblings she will never know. He kept looking over at my daughter everytime his wife would leave the table or when he would go to go up to the buffet. I just couldnt believe it. It made me so sick and yet pissed at the same time. My folks dont know these feelings cause they didnt know her dad was there. anyways i needed to get that off my chest