SexyBarManNSFW Nice Shots For Woodminion...'s blog: "the romantic in me"

faith is believing when you cannot see. Faith isn't easy, people lose faith in all sorts of things all the time. I have always been good with faith...until now. I was in love, a love deeper than any i have ever known, a love that i would have given everything for, and then some. Distance was no obstacle to me, time was meaningless. My faith was strong. But then i discovered a lie, and when the lie was not admitted to, i began to question everything that was told, my faith began to waver. I tried everything to quell my doubts, to keep my faith, but once it is lost, it is hard to regain. Finally, i asked for proof, as some will pray for a sign, i asked for proof. Even Thomas needed proof when Jesus had arisen from the tomb. I have never been a doubter, but i wanted to renew my faith, i wanted to be proven wrong. I was denied the proof i needed, i was told that proof would not be forthcoming, that it was not worth proving. So was i justified in losing faith, where no proof is given, or was i a fool, a faithless son of a bitch. I have always believed in God where no proof is at hand, and the only book of his deeds is full of holes, why could i not have the same faith in love. I am not the man i wanted to be

is there any sin that cannot be forgiven if forgivenes is sought. No, there isn't, not if you step forward and admit the wrong that you have done, if you feel true remorse. Any wrong can be forgiven. There is no lie, no hurt, no injury, no anything that can not be overcome as long as amends can be made. Some powers are stronger than anger, and injustice. And it is these things that can pull us through the hard times. It is these things that keep us human, it is these things that allow us to move on through life. According to the Christian tradition, God forgives everything. This is true, but first, we have to forgive ourselves.

Winters tattered blanket Lays upon frozen ground Bleak and dreary sight No warth to be found I want to let it in And numb my pain struck heart As i trudge my familiar path Feeling torn apart I've walked this path countless times Yet never so alone Hopeless in my soul Frozen to the bone I promised all eternity My love my life my home Home is where i head to Empty and alone I'd loved before or so i'd though Who's to really say Yet never before so deeply Never in such a way Right now the path is empty This cold and lonely night Empty home before me Closer with every stride Am i walking towards my future? On this barren path ahead Will it always be this empty? Until i wake up dead Years ago i had my hope To find a love like this Faith that it would find me I'd bask within it's bliss I'd found the love i'd searched for And began to watch it grow But it seems to have withered Beneath this icy snow I yearn to have her back I know it may never be Abandoned and alone The future set for me The spring will thaw, the snow will melt The sun will rise again But as for me, I'm all alone Probably to the bitter end

here i am alone again Artemis my only companion At Orion i sit and stare For in the stars is a champion With the Hunter and the Huntress I think of those i've known The question reasserts itself Why am i still alone Is it choice or is it folly Or the stupid things i've done Why is it that in all my life I still have found no one Love is life, or so they say I wouldn't really know for in my life i've known no love But yet they say it's so Don't get me wrong i have loved ones My family and my friends But no one to share my life with It's joys and saddened ends I still have faith i still have hope That love will find me soon Until it does i sit and wait With Orion and the moon

Attention...As of 12:01 AM CST of 20 Jan 07, i am taking what will be my last drag of a cigarette for what will hopefully be a really really long time. It is an expensive habit, it robs me of my breath, it commands my days and breaks at work, and worst of all, it makes me taste like an ashtray. I do not want to taste like an ashtray (i don't mind the other shit), i want a woman to WANT to kiss me (because i am a great kisser, just one that tastes like an ashtray) So, as of midnight tonight, i am having my ceremonial last cigarette, tossing my pack.....and gaining about 20 pounds. Why you may ask am i having a ceremonial last cigarette (it's okay, you can ask)...it is because i need to. Not for the niccotine, not for the oral fixation, but rather to convince myself that i am quitting, to make it more real, and to make it somthing to think about. As for why midnight, it's so i can say, it's been so many days hours and minutes since my last cigarette. It works, it worked last time i quit. That sounds odd, i know, the problem then was, no cravings, no agitation..so i got cocky, one night in a bar, i saw some girls smoking, and the best intro i could think of was bumming a smoke. Ten days later i was back up to my original habit. I will not be cocky again. I am Neal and i am an addict. One day at a time.

i think somewhere deep down in my heart i have always loved you...when it was the thought of you..or the hope of you.. but then i met you and realized how perfect my dreams really were..that here you are.. in reality and i wonder how i ever found you.. or you found me..i was lost before i found you.. now to cash in on a movie quote.. you had me from hello.. and ever since. i will go through my life always dreaming of you.. even when we're together.. if we spend every moment together, or if we never speak again...you will always be my other half.. you will always have my love.... from now until i have no more to give. i love you.. heart mind and soul.

suspended in limbo as time drags slowly by minutes that are hours my thoughts a stifled cry Time ceases to exist when you are not near hours that are days without you in my ear my universe has become you when'er you are around without you in my arms i cannot be found My love is my reality without you i cease to be just a passing shadow until you return to me

- Hug her dont make her hug you . - Sneak up behind her - Grab her by the waist - tell her shes beautiful - tell her she has amazing eyes - when your friends walk by say this is my girlfriend - Say i love you to her face not over the phone or myspace , or Cherrytap ....saying it over the net renders it meaningless - if shes sad take her in your arms and tell her everything will be okay - kiss her on the forehead - when you walk with her walk slowly - Tickle her even when she says stop - Dont say i love you Unless you Mean It. girls repost as - a true boyfriend would... Guys repost as - I would do this for her anyday

the following is an excerpt from the Epic of Gilgamesh, from Ur about 6000 years ago “’Go set a trap; take back with you a fine lover, Shmhat, the sacred temple priestess, w ho might let him see what charm and force a woman has. Then as Enkidu comes again to the watery hole, let her strip in nearby isolation to show him all her grace. If he is drawn toward her, and leaves the herd to mate, his beasts on high will leave him then behind.’” “’Here he is, fine lover; to be set to wet him with your tongue and chest and loins. Spread forth your happiness. Display your hidden charm. Jump him fast and kneel upon his shoulders. Without his wind then, he’ll enter near your entrance. Take off your robe to let him in. Let him see what force a woman has. The friends he has from on wild will exile him if he presses his person, as he will, into your scented bush.’ Shamhth let her garments loose and spread forth her happiness, which enkidu entered as a wind god enters an open cavern’s mouth. Hot and swollen first, she jumped him fast, knocking out his rapid breath with thrust after loving thrust. She let him see what force a woman has, and he stayed within her scented bush for seven nights, leaping, seeping, weeping and sleeping there.”

T'was Fate that introduced us T'is Fate that has kept us apart But this I've always believed In the bottom of my heart Time will bring us together In loves cherished beauty For forget not the lesson Brought through Serendipity Hope has always lived And love has always lurked Though the cruel twists of fate Always leave us irked But always have I held you Cherished in my heart A love that does not yield No matter how long apart If I happen to be wrong And we're not meant to be I have but one thought That brings comfort to me I would rather suffer Any hurt you could bestow Than feel the numb of knowing That we will never know Tis better to have loved and lost Than never loved at all So any chance of failing Seems petty and oh so small Always and Forever I am here for you So please turn not away Accept my love as true.