so when does everything get better??? this i'll never know.... do i love him, or should i let him go? this questions, a hard one... i really can't explain, for even when i sleep.... i seem to speak his name..... some one else now loves me..... someone else now cares...... and held, and comforted me..... when he was not there..... he promised me the world..... and at one point i obliged..... for i needed to get rid, of those thoughts and feelings inside.... and yet the others back.... things didn't go his way.... and once again he needs me, just to get through the day...... i wonder what he's thinking, and if he ever cared.... or if i was just someone, that he wanted right there..... now i hold the aces...... i stacked them up nice and neat.... but what i didn't expect was to get caught as a cheat..... like my hand in the cookie jar, i feel all the shame.... and i don't know what to think..... was i really that vain.... but though i still love him.... i belong to another.... and with three simple words...... he is gone forever.... though he might try, to find a way back in.... i'll know in my heart, the pain of this sin.... and that is why i stay farther then the eye can see.... for though i still love him..... he never loved me......
