tayled's blog: "Views From a Scattered Mind"

i went in today to have a consult with the surgeon that will be doing the biopsy. i got back from the Docs a bit ago. i go in to have the biopsy on the 4th. on the 20th i go in to have the port a cath that they put in my chest to receive the chemo meds through, to have it flushed as it needs to be done on a periodic basis. i was able to see the pet scan.. the cancer is in my neck, my chest(not my lungs) two spots in my abdomen and in my groin.. theah is a spot in my back as well. This is not as bad as the first time. The spots are much smaller. The reason for the biopsy is that my Onc Doc says that this particular type of cancer doesn't go into the lymph nodes of the torso... the surgeon says that it will show up theah as it has metastasized(stage 4 cancer)and it he believes it will still show up as squamous cell cancer. shrugs
i had some trouble to day at the docs. i called ahead of time to get directions to wheah the appt was(to make sure i had the right building) and the dude told me to go to the main building and ask for directions from the information desk.. asshole... i did that and no one was at the information desk when i got theah, when she did show up she didn't know her ass from a hot rock and sent me in the wrong direction... i finally reached the right place saw the surgeon had to go up to surgery to set things up and when i asked for directions again he kept pointing to the papah and saying you go theah... i was so confused, it seems to be happening to me more and more lately. i wish i had someone i could take with me but theah is no parking neah the hospital, my room mate can't go in with me cus he can't walk that much. i don't really know that many people neah wheah i live. It was so frustrating for me all i managed to do was walk around in a daze crying.

tay