xX TishyLicious RLGF2 Just Syn Xx's blog: "Poetry "

Sometimes I wish that I could smile again without faking a disguise,
Sometimes I wish that I could laugh again,
And see the sparkle in my eyes;

Sometimes I wish that i could love someone,
But its hard to move on,
My past is here to haunt me,
I don’t know how to remain strong;

Sometimes I want to break these wretched chains,
That bind me to this earth,
Sometimes I want to remember the memories,
No matter how much it hurts;

Sometimes I want to see your face again,
Even if it makes me cry,
Sometimes id want so bad to be with you,
Id much rather die;

Sometimes the memories of my past,
Are much to hard to bare,
Sometimes I close my eyes,
And tell myself the pains not really there;

Sometimes I look back at how it used to be,
And wish upon a star,
For my life to go back to those days,
When my life wasn’t so dark;

Sometimes I cry when no ones looking,
Because the pains to hard to bare,
Sometimes I cry up to the heavens,
Hoping someone with someday care;

Sometimes my aching heart cries out to me,
When I feel like giving up,
Sometimes I want to bad to fall asleep,
And never again wake up;

Sometimes I want to let go of my feelings,
And tell them to the world,
By no matter what I do,
It just makes my pain worse;

Sometimes I act like I am happy,
Even though im lying to myself,
Sometimes I act like people love me,
Even though my life is hell;

If I could go back to the way it was,
Before it all went bad,
Id change the way I live my life,
And love what I had;

Id be able to truly tell myself,
I love the life I live,
Id give anything to be able to say,
I finally got this wish;

Im happy and I love my life,
Just the way it is,
I don’t need to cry,
Or fake a smile,
I love this life I live;

But the past is in the past,
And this is just the way I am,
I wish I could go back in time,
But the reality is that I just cant..