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I thought I could get over you,

Yet the sound of your voice still rings within my ears;

I thought I could get over you,

Yet a part of me still wishes you were here;

I have told myself a thousand times I’m better off now that you’re gone,

But deep down I still need you,

My greatest wish is to be within your strong arms;

I told myself not to cry,

Time will heal my pain,

But still the tears they pour,

Like raindrops running down my face;

I told myself your not good for me,

All you bring is pain,

I’ts been 3 years I should be over you,

Yet the pain is still the same;

I keep telling myself not to think of you,

Yet I see you in my dreams,

I keep telling myself to forget you,

But once upon a time you were my everything;

I cannot just forget you,

Even though I try,

I cannot just forget you,

Your memory is forever etched in the back of my mind;

I wish I could forget you,

And move on with my life,

But I know now it is impossible,

And I don’t understand why;

Every other guy that has broke my heart,

Never made me hurt like this,

No other guy that has torn me apart,

Made me long to feel his kiss;

Every time I think of you,

I feel the tears pour down my face,

I close my eyes and I see you,

Standing there that day;

I try to hold onto the good times,

Before it all fell apart,

But I look back to that horrid day,

And it Re-breaks my heart….

Sometimes I wish that I could smile again without faking a disguise,
Sometimes I wish that I could laugh again,
And see the sparkle in my eyes;

Sometimes I wish that i could love someone,
But its hard to move on,
My past is here to haunt me,
I don’t know how to remain strong;

Sometimes I want to break these wretched chains,
That bind me to this earth,
Sometimes I want to remember the memories,
No matter how much it hurts;

Sometimes I want to see your face again,
Even if it makes me cry,
Sometimes id want so bad to be with you,
Id much rather die;

Sometimes the memories of my past,
Are much to hard to bare,
Sometimes I close my eyes,
And tell myself the pains not really there;

Sometimes I look back at how it used to be,
And wish upon a star,
For my life to go back to those days,
When my life wasn’t so dark;

Sometimes I cry when no ones looking,
Because the pains to hard to bare,
Sometimes I cry up to the heavens,
Hoping someone with someday care;

Sometimes my aching heart cries out to me,
When I feel like giving up,
Sometimes I want to bad to fall asleep,
And never again wake up;

Sometimes I want to let go of my feelings,
And tell them to the world,
By no matter what I do,
It just makes my pain worse;

Sometimes I act like I am happy,
Even though im lying to myself,
Sometimes I act like people love me,
Even though my life is hell;

If I could go back to the way it was,
Before it all went bad,
Id change the way I live my life,
And love what I had;

Id be able to truly tell myself,
I love the life I live,
Id give anything to be able to say,
I finally got this wish;

Im happy and I love my life,
Just the way it is,
I don’t need to cry,
Or fake a smile,
I love this life I live;

But the past is in the past,
And this is just the way I am,
I wish I could go back in time,
But the reality is that I just cant..

I miss you more and more each day, 

Sometimes I wish i could throw the memories away, 

but i know deep down that i cannot, 

your forever etched upon my heart; 

at a time I loved you, 

you were my all, 

but you showed your true colors,

when you watched me fall, 

fall to the ground drowning in my tears, 

I wasted so much time, 

so many years;

Now all i want to do, 

is forget that you exist, 

Forget about the past, 

and Once again begin to live;

I just want to move on, 

and meet someone new, 

maybe then i will truly, 

Forget about you. 

The truth is you’re my hero,
You truly saved my life,
The truth is you’re what I need,
To forever be satisfied;

I want to hold you in my arms,
And never let you go,
I want to be with you forever,
I truly love you so;

When I talk to you I’m happy,
Happier than I have felt in years,
When I hear your voice, 
It makes me smile, 
Smile from ear to ear;

I never imagined I’d find happiness,
I never imagined id fall in love,
I always thought it wasn’t for me,
But I never gave up;

And now I’ve finally found you,
And I will never let you go, 
Do you realize how much you mean to me?
Do you truly know? 

When you talk to her, 
It makes me sad, 
Sometimes I want to cry, 
But I don’t because deep down I know, 
One day you will be mine;

One-day ill say I love you, 
And you’ll see it in my eyes,
One day ill get to prove to you,
You’re the love of my life;

I Promise ill never leave you,
And ill never break your heart,
I promise you I love you,
With my whole entire heart.

hey Yal, just a breef heads up, Most of these poems I have written over the years, Some of em are new, but most of em are old. I hope yal enjoy them, and Please do not steal my work, ive put alot of time into these Poems, they mean alot to me. Thanks! 

should i tell myself its over?
should I finally give up? 
Should i lie to my heart,
Saying I dont need his love?

Should I smile when i look at him,
Tell myself it is Okay,
hes moved on,
And so should I,
I will someday get through this pain;

Should I hold back my tears,
Not let him see me cry?
Should I Walk away with Confidence,
Or should I tell him what Ive locked inside?

Should I hold onto this Dream,
Or should I finally set it free,
Should I Walk away forever?
its not like he still loves me;

Should I fall apart within his arms,
Let him see how I truly feel,
Should I Pour my heart out to him,
Let him know what I feel is real;

Should I Forget about what happened,
Somehow forget he even exists,
Should I tell Myself it will Be okay,
Even though without him, 
Its hard to live;

These questions I keep asking myself,
Are tearing at my heart,
I Dont want to walk away,
But i cant take it anymore;

This struggle I am going through,
not knowing what I am to do,
I dont know how to cope with this,
how do you deal when the one you love,
Doesnt love you?

How do i tell mysel Im okay,
And actually throw away this pain,
How do Look into a Mirror,
Without seeing it all over my face?

how do i tell myself i dont love him,
When deep down i truly Do,
how Do I forget about him,
When hes the one im terrified to lose??

I dont know what to do,
All i can do is softly cry,
As i Lie awake in my dark room,
awaiting another Sleepless night

Its not like i can push you,
so far away from me,
its not like i can hide it,
this pain is killing me;
its not like you dont see it,
its written on my face,
its not like you dont know it,
its scattered all over the place;

i tell you that your hurting me,
but you never really care,
i tell you that its killing me,
and the pain is hard to bare;
you tell me that you love me,
but how can that be?
when all you do is yell,
and do hurtful things;

i just wanted you to know,
that i do feel this pain,
i just wanted you to know,
that its killing me more each day;
its not like i am bulletproof,
the pain it hits me hard,
its not like i have no feelings left,
i just let them gather on my heart;

so if you plan to keep me,
please change your ways,
because like i said before,
your killing me more each day...