Quietness, no sound
no drama, no crap,
just me, all me, single ... alone
Happy, content..but lonely at times.
I love the fact im single, do as I please
Also hate the fact no one to hold me, watch me sleep
So independent, confident, and happy, yet fragile
the envy sets in, envy of love
proud to be who i am and sad to be what i am not
happy to be here but wishing I was there instead
Feelings that I will be forever this way incircle my thoughts
There are the days Im so involved with me
My life so fulfilling and joyous
That i somehow start to forget about my loneliness
But always for some reason, something pulls me back
And the sweetest things make me sad
Im the hopeful, optimistic person,
always seeing the brighter side of things
Then there are the days the rain falls
It falls fast and heavy and never seems to stop
And I wish I could just give up
Lay down in the street and just let it sweep me away
But yet I make myself dance in the rain
even with tears streaming down my face.
Eventually the rain will stop
But the thoughts still there
Yet i keep dancing
For I am in love, with Love
For all that it is
the happiness, the sweetness, the kindness
the sadness, the heartbreak, the hurt
it is enthralling and captivating
So my hopefull optimistic self tells me
One day i will feel that love
I wont be lonely and someone will be in love
in love with watching me sleep
and it still will be quiet
and happy and joyful
but not alone
but in this moment right now
I need someone to help pick me up
and help me dance in the rain
as right now i just want it to sweep me away