Maelbolgia's blog: "Sometimes I Wonder."

One day horse decides to go for a walk. He comes to a riverbank where he stops to survey the situation. A voice from below him calls out "Hello horse... would you be so kind as to give me a ride across this river?". Horse looks for a moment at the river and sees that its current is strong, perhaps too strong for him to make it across. Horse says to scorpion "Well now.. this river is pretty strong as it is scorpion and you will surely sting me anyway, so why would I give you a ride?". Scorpion stops and considers this. "Well I'll tell you what!" scorpion says to horse, "I'll give you my word I shall not sting you if you help me cross this river.". Horse contemplates this deeply for quite a while then decides to give scorpion a ride across the river. The currents were indeed the strongest that horse had ever felt, and as he lumbered across the river scorpion held on for dear life. Horse and scorpion reach the far bank of the river when scorpion lashes out with his stinger and stings horse. Horse looks down at scorpion "Why? Why did you sting me for I have only been kind to you scorpion and you'd promised you would not sting me if I was to bear you across the river?". Scorpion looks up at horse with his many eyes and replies "Well I'm a scorpion and that's just what I do".

Mental Illness And What It Means To Me. Mental illness assures me that I'll sleep well knowing it can only get worse. Mental illness fills my world with colorful and delightful friends and associates. Mental illness gives me the courage to fight on, because I KNOW I'm going to be victorious and end up Supreme Executive Dictator Of The Universe. Mental illness keeps me aware of those around me and those around me aware of me. Mental illness is the best thing that ever happened to me, for now I have an excuse for totally uncalled for, purely idiotic behavior at any given moment. Mental Illness Be Praised! R. Seaverns Dec. 20, 2005

Sometimes I wonder why... Why people choose to be as they are. Why I choose to be who and what I am. Why others look down upon each other. Why people have expectations of one another. Sometimes I wonder When... When will humanity cease to be as it is and has been. When those who can not see the big picture will become enlightened. When those who put more value in they're ego will be humbled. When I will find more of which I seek so desperately. When my words will mean something. Sometimes I wonder where... Where will I find that which I seek. Where others get the insane ideas about life that they have. When reality will sink in that were all stuck here. When the truth will be known by all. When my time on earth will actually end. Sometimes I wonder what... What will become of me. What the hell you people are thinking. What inspires humanity to be so ignorant and conceited. What fates and circumstances I shall once again prevail over. What fate will befall those I love. Sometimes I wonder who... Who will hear my words. Who will love all that I am. Who will be there for me. Who will I be there for. Who will "get it". Sometimes I cease to wonder all together and just bury my head in my hands and sigh.