Insane MelodyPanda's blog: "something"

All the things you tell me is it another lie? All the things you promise me are you trying to keep me in line? All the sweet endearments are you trying to make me stay? All the things, all the things are they just some twisted fantasy? Or are they going to go poof! in my face.... some day? ______________________________________________ Don't mind me trying out a poem.. Kind of. fast written.

The name "panda" originates with a Himalayan language, possibly Nepali. As used in the West the name was originally applied to the red panda. Until its relation to the red panda was discovered in 1901, the giant panda was known as Mottled Bear (Ailuropus melanoleucus) or Particolored Bear. The Chinese language name for the giant panda, 大熊貓, literally translates to "large bear cat," or just "bear cat" (熊貓). There are two explanations for the origin of this name. Physiologically, the eyes of most other bear species have round pupils, but the giant pandas have pupils that are vertical slits like cats' eyes. These unusual eyes, combined with its ability to effortlessly scale trees, maybe what inspired the Chinese to call the panda the "bear cat." However, this explanation seem unlikely as locals from different provinces use names such as "spotted bear" (花熊) and "bamboo bear" (竹熊) for giant panda, which shows that the farmers are more likely to use "bear" as the noun when they see an obviously bear-sized animal. On the other hand, some researchers believe that the name "bear cat," originally belonged to the red panda, which also live on bamboo in China, and they are actually cat-size. When Himalayan first saw giant panda, they named it "large bear cat," due to the similaries in behaviors and habitat. This will also explain why Chinese zoological texts and dictionaries published in the early 20th centuries, before the series of civil wars, always used the word "large" in the name and never just "bear cat."

An Anonymous letter. Dear (blank) I am going to try to let you know. That is was hard for me to make that decision as well to tell you. We have been with each other for many years, but we have obviously have grown apart. Couldn't you really tell? Yes, I love you but I am not "in love" with you. It make have been, at first all fun, happiness and a great ball of sunshine. But as the years have gone by it was slowly Deteriorating.. The verbal fights, the frustration..Money problems. Really stupid decisions, the one sided decisions. The accusations. The yelling, the crying and sometimes I felt that there was lying. One person losing a job and still have not find one since. Yes, the job market here is hard. But have you looked every day, to everywhere, Not to a simple food establishment? and keep applying. Trying to help one(1) person out of debt, while making(@) ownself into debt. Only that number (1) turned around put himself into debt even after (2) helped him out of it. I felt I was being under a camera every day, I felt I had a son that was in his 30's. Self esteem went low. Even though you may not have felt like you weren't doing it,, the drill sargeant came out when I went somewhere with out you,. We were with each other 24/7 a day. The only time when you went to visit your friends and family alone is when we were actually apart. Yes, in the beginning I felt alright with it, but it have went worse. Anyways, at the time being I have begun to not like myself, either. Of course I felt like a puppet. With no life Attaching to myself. So, I have been thinking I needed break. I know I hurt you this way. Sorry that I did, But I was afraid of what might/ would happend if i didn't speak up now. I believe it would have been worse. And believe me it was the hardest thing I did so far. I am sorry I really am. I hope your not too distressful and I know you don't want to hear "We can still be friends" Nothing else I can say...I am sure there is more. But this letter has to end.. At least I told you in person and not in some e-mail,letter or a phone call. Truly yours, (Anonymous)