Heartbroken in East TN's blog: "So much for best friends..."

I AM ASKING ALL MY CHERRY FRIENDS/FANS TO HONESTLY ANSWER THIS IF YOU KNOW ME AND HAVE CHATTED WITH ME... I HAVE BEEN ACCUSED OF NOT BEING A TRUE FRIEND. I HAD A DISAGREEMENT WITH SOMEONE WHO I THOUGHT WAS MY BEST FRIEND. SHE NEVER WISHED US WELL ON OUR TRIP AWAY FROM HOME AND I SENT HER A TEXT MESSAGE SAYING "TY FOR WISHING US WELL ON OUR TRIP, WAIT, U DIDN'T". SHE GOT UPSET AND SAID I WAS MEAN. THEN HER FRIEND, ALSO ON CT AND DOESN'T EVEN KNOW ME, GOT INVOLVED AND SAID I AM NOT A TRUE FRIEND AND I AM A SELFISH PERSON. HE BASICALLY SAID 2 THINGS...TRUE FRIENDS NEVER HAVE TO APOLOGIZE TO EACH OTHER FOR ANYTHING AND NEVER HAVE ANY EXPECTATIONS OF EACH OTHER. I DISAGREED. I SAID TRUE FRIENDS SHOULD APOLOGIZE IF THEY UPSET OR HURT EACH OTHER (WHICH THIS BEST FRIEND HAD DONE) AND EXPECTATIONS IN FRIENDSHIP ARE HONESTY, TRUST, CARING, AND KEEPING PROMISES WITH RARE EXCEPTIONS. I ALSO TOLD HIM IT WAS ADMIRABLE HE WANTS TO BE THERE FOR HER, BUT SINCE HE DIDN'T KNOW ME, HE REALLY HAD NO RIGHT TO GET INVOLVED AND INSULT ME BECAUSE HE ONLY KNEW HER SIDE... NOW, AGAIN, I WAS ACCUSED OF NOT BEING A TRUE FRIEND. THOSE OF U WHO KNOW ME AND CHAT WITH ME REGULARLY, AM I A HORRIBLE FRIEND OR AM I A TRUE FRIEND?

WELL, IT LOOKS LIKE ATLGRNEYES HAS DECIDED TO BE FINISHED WITH LUPIN AND I...AFTER WE SUPPORTED HER FOR 6 MONTHS AND AFTER I SUPPORTED HER FOR 10 MONTHS LAST YEAR WHEN SHE HAD NOTHING. THIS IS THE THANKS WE GET: LIES TO US DECEIT TO US TAKING THINGS FROM US DITCHING US YELLING AT ME ALMOST DAILY TREATING ME LIKE CRAP REFUSING TO BE AT LUPIN'S SIDE WHEN IN THE HOSPITAL ETC... AND INSTEAD OF APOLOGIZING, SHE RUNS AWAY... SOME FRIEND HUH? SOMEONE WHO WAS CARED FOR... WHAT KIND OF A FRIEND (SUPPOSED BEST FRIEND) DOES THAT TO PEOPLE WHO TOOK HER INTO THEIR HOME RENT-FREE AND HELPED HER? THIS WAS TAKEN AT A HAPPIER TIME (ATLGRNEYES ON LEFT):

THIS IS A POLL FOR OPINIONS. I WILL FIRST SET A SCENARIO AND THEN ASK OPINIONS ON SOMETHING... SCENARIO: YOU HAVE A FRIEND, A BEST FRIEND, THAT DOES NOT HAVE A BF/GF AND SINCE THE MOMENT U MET THEM, THEY HAVE LOVED MASSAGES(NON-SEXUAL) (FOOT MASSAGES MAINLY) FROM YOU. YOU GIVE THEM BECAUSE YOU GIVE GOOD MASSAGES. YOU GIVE THEM CAUSE YOU ENJOY GIVING THEM AND THEY RECEIVE THEM CAUSE THEY ENJOY RECEIVING THEM. EVERYTHING IS FINE... THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN, THEY TURN ON YOU. THEY ARE MEAN TO YOU, THEN THEY STOP WANTING THE MASSAGES. YOU ASK WHY, THEY SAY BECAUSE ONLY A BF/GF SHOULD BE GIVING THE MASSAGE AND IT IS WRONG FOR ANY FRIEND TO MASSAGE ANOTHER FRIEND. END OF SCENARIO. NOW, FOR THE OPINION... IS IT WRONG FOR A FRIEND TO GIVE ANOTHER FRIEND A MASSAGE (NECK RUB, BACK RUB, FOOT RUB, ETC.), ESPECIALLY IF THE FRIEND IS NOT EVEN IN A RELATIONSHIP? REMEMBER THE MAIN THING...THERE ARE NO FEELINGS OTHER THAN FRIENDSHIP AND HAVE BEEN EXPRESSED THAT WAY ALREADY AND THERE WAS NEVER ANY PROBLEM IN THE 30 MONTHS PRIOR... ALSO, THERE WAS PROMISE EXPRESSED HERE. I ASKED HER IF SHE WAS FINE WITH ALL OF THIS AND SHE SAID YES AND SHE PROMISED TO GET THE MASSAGE AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK. THESE ISSUES ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO REMEMBER. IF YOU HAVE AN OPINION ON THIS, PLEASE LEAVE IT IN A COMMENT TO THIS BLOG. ***PLEASE ONLY COMMENT ON THE QUESTION IF IT IS WRONG OR NOT FOR ANY FRIENDS TO DO THAT AND NOT ON THE SCENARIO ITSELF***

Well, I gave my heart and love to my best friend again and I got burned...why do I keep putting myself through all the hurt? Is friendship not existent anymore? Am I asking too much from friendship? To me, friendship is full of lil symbolisms that show how much someone cares for the other. Little things make a world of difference. Little things like making dinner once a week, going out to a movie, a lil gift here and there, saying you love someone, etc. I know this is also online stuff, but I truly feel friends in real life off the web should get more comments on the web than online friends who have never met. I believe we should help the ones we love in need. However, for the thousandths time, I help someone who I thought was my best friend only to have her turn her back on me and trash me. U KNOW WHO U ARE!!! (...and those of you who have read my page know who she is too just by the captions on my pics) I was there when u had no place to go and let u live here at no cost. I was there when u had no money and gave u some. I was there when u wanted to end it all and helped u. I was there to help whenever u called on me... How do u thank me and repay me? U ditch me, u trash talk me, u yell and cus at me, u break your promises, and u turn your back on me after stabbing me in mine... Where were u: When my gf (your other best friend) was in the hospital bleeding to death? When I was really sick? When I needed someone there for me? You were nowhere to be found and turned your back. There is NOBODY out there gonna justify not being there when a best friend is in the hospital bleeding to death after they were there for u so much!!! Think about it... This is a final chance for friendship...take it or leave it...remember, once ended, there is no going back...