no need to harm the flower...he loves me! i seen that saying once when looking through comments trying to find that perfect one to post.. anyway..I feel that it is a fitting title for this blog... what Im about to post is the response my boyfriend wrote me when I asked him to think about what he wants and make sure im it before we go much farther cause I just cant handle going through what I went through before.. anyway here it is..
Ok. Let me begin by saying that has got to be the most I have read in a long time. I can't promise my response will be that long. I can't promise my response will be that good. But I will promise that my response will be the truth, take it as it is. You ask me to think about it. But then I ask you, why do I have to? I have had a year to figure that one question out. Whether it was me sitting in branchport talking to you, trying so hard to come see you. Or sitting at dunkin donuts not knowing if i would ever see you again. My choice was made from the time we said hello. From the time we would sit up all night and talk....about nothing, and everything at the same time. From the time we connected, not physically, we connected mentally, and spiritually. You felt like the piece of the puzzle that I forgot to put in place. Before you, i just drifted along. I may have told girls i loved them. But that was just something i did to get what i wanted. Nothing more, nothing less. Take it as you want it. I had no direction on where i wanted to go, no direction on where i was going either. Everyday i would wake up not knowing what would happen that day. But I kept going. I starved, ate out of trash cans, slept under bridges, begged my family for help. I am proud of where my life has turned out. But there was still that one piece to the puzzle that i just seemed to not think about. But when the puzzle got put together the hole in it would be seen by anyone. Just the same as anyone could see i needed someone to help push me in the right direction. But at the same time they need to help me when i fail. Someone who would pick me up when i fall, but will also not catch me so i learn what i can and can not do. And now, with all my pieces set into place. The grand scheme of things comes clear. And the answers to the questions i never asked myself would be answered. Who would i trust? Who would i love? Who would i in a moments notice tear my own heart out to prove it beats for her? The answer to the questions, the missing piece of the puzzle mam, is you. Miss Alivia. Everything we have done, and everything that we will do, I would not change it for the world. If we crash and burn, or make it to the end. I would not change a thing. Just like the Garth Brooks song, The Dance, I would not have it any other way because from the time i stepped out of that cabs door and saw you standing there one wild and adventurous night i started for once, in my life, to actually live for something.
so Im posting this just because.. for no specific reason other than that Im feeling like a very lucky woman right now and I really truly do love my boyfriend...and for anyone who thinks that we shouldnt be together....I dare you to try and break what we have..
