NTZ's blog: "A Return Of Thought"

Gut wrenching. Pain that is felt, only I'm to blame. Fire burning strong but I doused the flame. Nothing but love when I say your name. Nothing but hurt baby just the same. But I'm the one to blame for these days of loneliness, thelonious. Monk as I compose these words exposing sense. Feeling nude, pondering on what has come to this. No where to turn, all paths housed a broken bridge. Gasoline fumes, match in hand for these well hearted wishes. For everything that we're missi...ng. Like past lived kisses and hugs on dishes. Dinner served but no room for dessert, fuck this living. I have better dreams for better things. I also want the fairy tale mockingbird's sings. So hush little baby don't say a word for crazy man about flings. He don't be about those wedding rings. Yeah i'm again on this. Opinions of them have a nigga pissed. Like i'm the one who has to show them shit. You all just wont look over it. Like I'm the only nigga in the world with a past full of bitches. Funny thing 28 years for 6 pussies, that's straight pimpin? Playa of the year? These she will's Weezy as I Drake them, dick gifting. A legend when given the green light, watch them all finally get lifted. An ordinary person, that truth yall over looking but fuck your living. Then expect for me to give you my all, like you give a fuck how i'm feeling. One man for one woman leaves one dog for three bitches. Means two bitches just stay tripping while one pussy is fuck centric. Straight bitching but never leaving, don't cry now you're straight with it. You give him the bricks need to build the home in which he's living. Now i'm on the outside, too Staind disdained for even breathing. No like eyes viewing the wildlife in this jungle for the minds of the meeting....let me repeat it....