Miss Mandy RLGFFM2 iamdickhead DO NOT OWN's blog: "Daily Thoughts"

Hey guys hows it goin? Its been a pretty good day today for me. Woke up early and got the kids some donuts for a surprise :) and came home and cleaned the house up a little bit. Really just relaxed most of the afternoon and watched some TV which i rarely do. Ive been in a weird mood the past couple of days. Im hoping it passes soon. ANYWAY~ I had the most amazing conversation with the man I love last night.. 2 hours and some odd minutes of nothing but laughing and talking. Im tellin ya, loving him is soo easy. He is unlike anyone else I have ever talked to or dated. I dont know it just feels right, which brings me to my next topic... The last guy I talked to on here..

Im just honestly tired of being asked questions and we have some mutual friends that like to cause some drama or go and run and tell him everything I post.. (im slowly deleting them) but in the mean time I DO NOT care what R3CKLESS is doing, i dont care what he has to say about me and i dont care if hes telling different stories than what actually happened between us. I usually dont blast my shit but im just truly sick of it. Okay so him and I started talking in late May just as friends, and then we decided take it a bit further in late June, all the while not putting a label on us. Which was fine at first. No I love yous, nothing crazy, just talked as friends and flirted on Fubar. Well about the middle of july we had our first "fight" he cut things off because some guys were flirting on me (keep in mind I WAS NOT entertaining it) it sucked but it was whatever, so we started talking again and He told me I had to prove to him pretty much that I wasnt a whore... That I was serious.. Okay so this boy had my phone number since like the 2nd week we started talking, wouldnt call me or anything, but rubbing it in my face that he was talking to other girls that he talked to on fubar.. (Im really patient i swear) AND tellin me he loved me.. okay so if you love someone that usually means you want to take it to the next level? maybe comit to that person? NO he didnt want to, he would not label me as his girlfriend and that bothered me ALOT.. if he was telling me he loved me, and telling me that he wanted to be with me then what was the big deal. so the more i thought about it the more i just felt like it wasnt right for me.. so I cut things off (and he didnt even fight it) so that proved some shit to me.. and got accused of talking to someone else, He just wasnt nice to me end of story. So then I felt bad... anyone that truly knows me knows that I hate when anyone is upset with me. SO me being the nice person I am decided to apologize but wanted to remain friends... But he would fuck with my emotions, telling me he was going to ask me to be his gf, he talked to his mom about me.. Feeding me all this bullshit to practically make me feel like shit.. I mean to a point i did but at the same time I was just over it.. He was my friend... in all honesty thats all he ever was.. He didnt want me but he didnt want anyone else to have me either, all while feeding all you guys half ass bull shit.. hes drama.He would play some of you girls against me just to get me pissed off.. telling me that yall were flirting with him and I better watch myself... Im too old for that highschool shit. For you ladies that are harassing me, and stalking my shit, theres the story. He has made the statement that I am saying the same shit to the new guy that I did him... R3CKLESS and I didnt even talk half as much so I dont know where hes getting that.

The new guy in my life is absolutely amazing, Hes so generous, he cares, he doesnt try to make me jealous on purpose, and anytime a girl comes at him in anyway that might seem inappropriate he tells me, hes even went as far to send me screen shots (AND I DIDNT EVEN ASK FOR THEM) just to make sure I believe him. We talk on the phone almost daily and he knows more about me in this short amount of time than anyone else has even thought about. He makes me laugh, hasnt made me cry (except for when he sent me flowers) and that was just because it was so unexpected. I am 100% myself with him, and he accepts me.. I literally could probably talk about him for hours.. It just feels right So theres my rant for today. I am just over this bullshit Even tho hes blocked on everything some of you bitches still feed it to him.. Feed him this one..

Thanks for reading... Until next time.. xoxo