Jealousy it sure as hell dont look good on me....
I guess im just jealous of what i dont have and what i could have.
Its as though i always put my heart on the line with the wrong person
I mean i knew it was wrong from the moment i laid eyes on him
I have no right to say what he can and cant do and either does he
And yet we both have our jealous ways
The sitution im in has happened before and yet im allowing it to happen again
I let myself open and the first time got turned down
Will it happen again im not sure but i know that the jealousy is still there
Just like it was for the first i have it for the second.
Both had girlfriends and yet i decided to put myself out there for them.
Its funny cause i get jealous to know they are wit someone
I guess i cant really expect much since i put myself in this situation
Jealousy...Yeah thats something that I have but i guess its because i have no trust
How can you have trust for someone who is okay with cheating on the one they care about
It just doesnt make sense to me why i continue to put myself in these situations
Im hoping that i learn sooner than later that i do deserve someone better
Someone who will be 100% mine and not just mine sometimes
Not when it is a good time for them.
I dont want to get hurt again
I know i will and yet i wont leave or i wont say no
Its almost as though i give myself false hope
I like to think i can change someone....
Who knows what imma do
