running
I haven't had any intresting dreams till last night
It was cold outside and I was sitting on my front porch lacing up my shoes...i had black pants on and my (eva's) grey Iowa sweatshirt on (that's falling apart but i love it)...I was getting ready to go running A. was there and he asked why I would go running I replied with "because I can" when in truth I was thinking to myself I can take all the emotional pain and put it physical without more scars. I took off running down the street and when I looked back he had a confused look on his face (not like i could blame him I tend to confuse alot of people) the sky started to turn dark grey almost black as storm clouds moved in along with lightning and I can remember thinking it's 20 degrees out and it's going to storm in January how wierd...I can remember the blocks go by and then turn into miles and how impressed I was with how far I could make it. I didn't care about the storm brewing above me all I cared about was how my legs were on fire and my chest burned from me breathing in the cold winter air...then I threw up and my mp3 player was playing In This Moment "Prayers" then I woke up. It was strange makes me wonder what i'm running from
