Things have gotten so outta hand. They weren't supposed to end here but now I feel as if I have to make all feelings go away, have to make it seem as if everything I feel isnt real. I dont want to be the reason they end but I dont know as that I can hide it if the feelings continue to be strong. Everything is falling apart and I dont want to see any of it happen. I have been trying to go a different way to make things so much easier but now I dont know what to do or think. I have found myself a hole...one that I cant figure out how to get out of. He says so much yet I just dont know anymore. I feel so lost and so left in the dark to everything. I just want things to go back to how they were. Want it all to go away, dont want the drama or the stress of it all anymore.
