Ok so I am feeling a need to vent again!
2008 Started off (in my opinion) on A fucked up note for me. I was stuck at home because a planned trip out of town fell through!
SO I was home ALONE(what else is new). I had, and apparently still do NOT have a reason to smile (as I am always being told by random people)
So JAN goes by, My migraines gone (one positive).
February, FUCK YOU CUPID!!!!!!!!!,
BUT wait, I actually went on a date. HOLY FUCKIN SHIT...., Yeah I met a beautiful(in my opinion) woman, who did/does not seem to have ONE FUCKIN IOTA of the "lets play the ETERNAL male/female Game/battle of the sexes BULLSHIT" about her.
We talked a bit here( here being Myspace people, keep up...) and she even called me "intriguing" her words .
I have been called a few things in my fairly short lifetime, BUT that was a first to be called "intruiging" by someone. And wehn We actually MET in person and hung out.... it was one of the best times I have had in a VEEEEERRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYY LONG time! By the time we each went home it wassomewhere between 10:30 and 11pm. Yeah kinda early, BUT she had to be up the next day to do the family thing with her folks.
So the cutting to the chase part......
I have not heard from her now for 2 weeks.....
So is fate, karma or some other ethereal entity FUCKING with me?????????
Why have me actually THINKING I can feel like I might be worth someone wanting to get to know me, if it was(possibly gonna turn out this way AGAIN?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
So for now I am close (once again) to wantign to forget about any aspect of a relationship in my life.
Basically, since I am told I am (supposedly) an wesome person, such a great guy, etc....blah blah blah, and that any woman who would not want to get to know me it is their loss.....
well it gets closer and closer to it being a loss every day......
Unless there is in way someone out there to save me from that.........................
