Skittlez's blog: "relationships"

Ok I have this BIG problem... The guy I am with has been in some trouble... But he's a good guy.. The only problem is that I've dating guys like him before and they only end up in heartache. Because of this reason I find it almost impossible to trust him. Now I'm not saying that my past is controlling my relationship now but I find it very hard to trust a man. Especially when they go online and put things up like, sexy ladies, or they are feeling another girl.. Especially when I catch them looking at other womans pictures... Now I know it COULD be harmless but at the same time I just don't trust him, flat out. I know his past, and he still has friends that act from his past. That right there brings questions in my head. He seems like a good guy but they all do at first. No offense to you men out there but I have a nack for picking the "right" man... If you know what I mean. But regardless I think it would be wise if we both just gave up the sites while we were together. I don't flirt or anything with the guys on Fubar because I'm with him. I know my boundaries and he should know his but he doesn't. I'm the type of girl I don't like to share even online, especially when he has the girls texting his fucking phone!!!! I'm not stupid!!! I know the signs, and I know where it leads too. He can say "I love you" all he wants but in the back of my head I will always think, "hes lying, keep your guard up." Doesn't matter what he says, and I'm not afraid to call a guy out on it. Even if it costs me the relationship.. Yes I have trust issues, but for damn good reasons. I can't trust anyone who puts the type of shit he puts on the computer and then has the fucking bitches texting his phone!!!! I CAN'T STAND IT!!!!! STOP TEXTING HIS PHONE!! I got rid of every man texting my phone on yahoo, fubar, myspace, whatever.... even the lesbian/bi girls!!! I did it the second he sounded jealous or made a comment. why can't he do the same for me?! I don't want he deleting his shit but act like he has a fucking woman for once!!!! Just b/c your online doesn't hide the fact of what you have. I've lost a man because they couldn't keep their dick in their pants with online bullshit.. I'm sorry but I'm ready to just drop the ball and give up on the shit. He can't take the hint that I don't like it. I don't want him to delete his shit but keep his shit under wraps. Stop saying the shit he says and having fucking bitches text him

My b/f and I have been dating for a little bit now but it hasn't been long. But the last week or so he has been a little distant. I know hes been really busy but at the same time when he says he will call me, he doesn't. Hes done this a few times already. And even though its small, little things like that hurt my feelings. It makes me feel like hes losing interest. He just recently picked college back up which is fine with me, I have no problem with him working and going back to school but I don't think he's managing his time well. He has all week to finish something and the one day that I have to spend with him he's doing work.. Now it doesn't upset me its just the fact that I'm there and I would like to spend as much time as possible with him because I haven't seen him all week. But my main issue is that he hasn't talked to me at all like he used too, and he never calls me anymore. If he does its for two seconds, literally! I could just be paranoid thinking that what little we have is going down the drain already which I would hate. Right now I'm praying that it will all blow over and when I get some work and my place then him and I will be a lot better off b/c we wont have to deal with my family and we can enjoy real time together with no interruptions. I just hope that he does feel for me and hes just the type of guy who has a hard time showing feelings or telling somebody, which I'm pretty sure thats how he is, lmao. Anyways people this blog is just meant for me to get stuff off my mind. I know for a fact that all of this stress and crap him and I are dealing with will blow over very soon and we will be able to take our relationship farther than just the couple who sees each other once or twice a week. I'm positive that everything will work out including us.... Lets just hope he feels the same way!!!! Muah baby!!!!!! miss you so much!