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As I sit here at 130 AM EST, next to my grandmother who will likely not make it the rest of the week. I am left only to ponder the meaning of life, who my friends are (which comes without question), why we are who we are, and why people cant accept someone for who they are anymore. I sometimes wonder what the point to life is.. then as I watch my little boy play.. i realize.. its to learn.. and gain as much knowledge as possible before the last breath of life. Its also our purpose to pass on as much knowledge as possible to others so that they too can gain and enjoy the knowledge that they may not know. While I enjoy living life.. and enjoying things the way they are I also enjoy the way that I can put a smile on someones face when they need it. Knowing that a smile is on someones face because of me is one of the greatest feelings Ive ever had. My family at Constant Motion Radio has helped me a lot over the past couple months to better myself. Not only have they helped get sober and supported me through that.. they have also helped me cope with the soon loss that will happen to my blood family. These people are amazing and I cherish and love each and every one of them for that. There will actually never be enough words to express my thanks.. and gratitude to these people and how they have helped me. To all of you out there.. I hope one day you find true happiness in your life.. and that that someone special comes along and captures your heart and lets you know.. and proves to you that it is true. As I look back over my life.. I look at the relationship my grandparents had. Both sets. My grandmother who I am sitting with now and my grandfather that passed some years back were together almost 50 years before my grandfather passed... and even though my grandmother tried dating again after my grandfather passed she was still madly in love with him and no one could replace him. The grandmother who lives back home, her and my grandfather that passed 10 years ago this September were together almost 50 years as well. She chose to never date again. If these kind of relationships were possible then.. theyre possible now.. and I see them forming daily around me. I know that one day.. i will have that and i will not have to ever be lonely again! ~this has been the random thoughts of the twiztid one!~
