xOxMandaBugxOxCMRx's blog: "rants"

so apparently i let myself fall in love with a ghost.. someone that will never actually show me the love i have put into the relationship back. i thought maybe just maybe it wasnt true that everything i had heard and seen wasnt true. i opened myself up put myself out there let my gaurd down thinking that maybe just maybe it was real. after months.. and YEARS of "knowing" this person and falling in love it was nothing more than a game.. im sick of being a game being a toy for those who think that im easy that im just a piece of meat well guess what.. that bitch.. that demon i hid all too well for so long is back and i dont give a fuck to unleash this demon of lonliness anymore. its set my path is clear ill live my life and give my kids everything what they need but no longer will i be hurt no longer will i cry over a man no longer will i let anyone into my heart that doesnt earn their way there i cant handle the pain any longer it dictates everything i do thats over said and done