OriginalSin's blog: "Ramblings"

At the moment, I'm about five days into my new diet/lifestyle. And at this exact moment, I could eat a pound and a half of chocolate. Stress makes me want sweets in the worse way.

I've been on the road for a bit (and off Fubar) and I learned while in Europe these last few weeks for work, that they are all pretty much slim little things. And I, as an American, REALLY stood out with my excess weight that really hadn't been bothering me. Well it "didn't" bother me until I was walking along the Promenade in Frankfurt. I thought I was on a semi-casual catwalk with all the thinness of those around me. Do they ever eat?! Well they smoke so maybe some of them do that as opposed to eating food. But seriously, thin/fit/insert descriptive of choice here. 

So I came home with a renewed focus for getting off the weight that has crept on the last few years. I damn near blew out my knee a few years back and just let the gym disappear into the sunset at that time. Plus my trainer who I would see once a week, thought it was her duty to damn near kill me so that I would feel the workout for about four or fives days. I assume it was because I was only booking her one day a week. So I knew that once I would have a training session that I wouldn't be able to walk normal and would looked like a new born giraffe with no control over my legs for the following week. It was hell and is probably a big reason once the knee gave out I was relieved and in NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hurry to ever go back. 

So I'm trying to find my way back without said trainer. LOL Eating clean, ie: making it from scratch at home and measuring my portions, is the new name of the game. And so far, been pretty good with it. 

And working out with handweights and I did an almost six mile bike ride yesterday and my knee didn't quit on me so that's a big plus, right there. 

However, today, at this moment......I want fucking chocolate. And I want it because of being a little stressed at the moment. And stressed spelled backwards is desserts. 

Sigh. 

I think I'll make myself a chocolate protein shake and put a shot of coffee in it. See if I can jump start this funk I feel creeping in......