ohjess1's blog: "Ramblings"

well, my mother had a masectomy on july 11th, and she's doing very well. :) i was able to get emergency leave to be with her and for that i'm thankful. was supposed to go on a date tonight and he ended up bailing. story of my life. find someone interesting and they're married, live too far away, aren't wanting something serious or want to be too serious. it never fails. like for instance, i was chatting with a guy at the bar the other day and things seemed to be going extremely well. he was funny, and extremely attractive but i excused myself to the restroom and he was gone when i got back! thought maybe he thought i wasn't interested. i've been back to the bar 3 times and haven't seen him since. ah, one damn day i swear. :) that is all for now.

I hate CQ. It sucks, it gives you a lot of time to think about stuff that probably should never be thought of, actually. Lol. I know I bitch about being single, and I know that I'm the only one who can change my current situation, but I'm starting to wonder if there is anyone who can actually put up with my bullcrap! For instance, I talk WAY to much. There are times when MY ears want to bleed from listening to myself for as long as I do. Then let's factor in my indecisiveness. I can NEVER make up my mind about anything. I'm the one who has to get her food to go because she couldn't decide what she wanted when everyone else did. Seriously! I cuss, alot. I don't know why, I guess because the words were always a part of my parents vocabulary...who knows! But nobody wants to take a girl home to meet their parents and the first thing out of her mouth is, "Well, damn, it's for sure shittin' about damn time I met you guys!" =/ I also have a tendency to dwell on the past. Like, the what could've been's and the should've been's. It's one of my annoying habits. I don't know, maybe I'm thinking way to much, or just not thinking hard enough. I guess only time will tell. Blah, and I'm homesick. I miss my dog, and my sister. Lol. AND my mom's HOMEMADE sweet tea vodka, is the shit. I miss that, too. =/ BLEH'. Any ideas or suggestions for my current situation? Or just comments?

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired, and it's not of being in the military, it's of trying to find love while in the military. Everyone is always so cautious about getting into a relationship with someone who is set to deploy, because not only is it heartbreaking to watch someone leave that you love, it's devestating to know that they might not come back. My Dad has always been there for me, through thick and thin, but I see how the military has affected his relationships in the past. It didn't work out with my mother, and it's not really working with my step-mom. I have guys approach me all the time, asking for a date. And it always ends up the same way...dinner, movie, and then some stupid excuse to why he has to go back to his place but I can come if I want. I want a guy who isn't going to invite me back to his place after, I want a guy who is going to walk me to my door, kiss me goodnight, and then call me the next day for another date! Is that to hard to ask for? I've asked a few guys in my Flight as to why men do this, and their answer is, "Life is too short to waste opportunities!". But it's not always about losing an opportunity, it's about finding the right one! Is there even a right one? To make a long rambling short, I'M SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SINGLE!

DEPLOYING TODAY. CAN'T SAY BYE TO EVERYONE. SO, THANKS FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT. I'LL BE ON WHEN I CAN GET ON! LOVE YOU ALL.

Tomorrow will be my last FULL night on Fubar. :) I'm deploying to Afghanistan on Friday. Thank you for all the good times, and the bad times so far. I'll check Fubar periodically, but if you have my YIM, I'll be on there more often than on here. I've enjoyed the ride so far, and hope there will be many more when I finally return. And J, stay strong. :) I love you.

Hi Fubar Friends! I'm here to let you know...after July 6th, my time will be VERY limited. I will be deployed to Afghanistan...YAY! So, love me while I'm here and write me when I'm gone. If you'd like to keep in touch, I'll write you or give you my YIM! Happy Fu'ing while I'm away! :D

I'll never get through all my messages, although I'm trying...it might not be until next week! I wanted to thank everyone for a wonderful Spotlight and a fabulous first Happy Hour! You guys are the best! I wanted to give special thanks to the people who helped me get Spotlight with their generous donations: Totalchaos, brother of sorrow, abram575, HoosierTexan, and my sister, Ang. Without them, I would have never gotten' to be on the homepage for a whole day! It was fun, and I met tons of cool people! So, let's keep FU-IN', and hope everyone enjoyed the day yesterday! I know I did!