I have nothing left to lose, and nothing to gain
I walk along these shadows and I will remain
Enshrouded in the mystery of unhappy endings
I learned long ago there's no use in pretending
Fantasy fades as reality crashes into my face
The truth of my circumstance putting me in my place
Two paths lay before me, which should I choose
I am undecided wondering what is the use
One leads to darkness and one too you
If you stood here I wonder what you'd do
Facts and fictions bleed together for all time
Right and wrong are blurred by a fading line
When lies sound sweeter then the truth
And you close your eyes and turn from the proof
That you'll never find what you feel you deserve
Longing forever for what you cannot unearth
A fucking pain in the core of me, twisting the knife
Something I must live with for the rest of this life
I peel away this flesh that holds me to limitations
I shake away the chains of love at their foundations
The pity of you has only made it worse
Your eyes on me is like a curse
I can't stand the weight of your gaze
The shame I feel you'd be amazed
I can't even look at pictures of you
Without reliving what we went through
If I could I disappear, I'd become one with the shadows
And I'd be the same outside as I am inside, hallow
There's nothing left of me of any substance
But my heart fights back with such resistance
No matter how I try to give up on myself
There's something that fights deep inside myself
It could be the memories in the back of my mind
Maybe it's myself that I'm trying to find
The sun is shinning behind black clouds
The words I whisper to myself aloud
I feel imprisoned by the memories I carry
Sentenced to life and the feeling is scary
That I'll never overcome these things inside
The love and hate within me starts to collide
You get a man who's not quite a man anymore
Who wonders what fate may have in store
If the future plays out like the past
I pray this breath will be my last
