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Well I think its time I make a eval of my first 2 months back in GA. I have good feelings about my choice though I regret the circumstances in which it was made. In the end I still have many things to fix with myself and with family but I know for a fact I had to escape the situation I was in it it led to my heavy drinking and also my breif time in the hospital barely escape another stay at the grey bar hotel.
I havent lived with my Dad in almost 20 years, I moved away from GA at the end of the brutal 80s and now I find myself again here in 2009. IT was funny, I was thinking alot of GA before I moved and something told me I would end up here again.
I left WA because I was sick of being told what I could and couldnt do and who I could and couldnt see. I mean I couldnt even pick up a friend from a place I used to work at because she had no ride. YEa it was there car, but she was my friend and she needed help.
Plus my drinking was a problem. Downing shots of Jack and even when I was desprate shots of rubbing acohol mixed with soda before and being drunk a few times. Then I decided to go sober and for a month I thought all was good. Then came the last day, I got mad at my parentings grounding me for sticking up for myself because my mom was lecturing me about stuff I had already taken care off. I then damnage some property and then they call the police. I then get sent to a hospital because they couldnt put the bracelts on me because I didnt hurt any one. My dad then came and offered me a better life. Aginst my moms wishes I went. I left behind almost everything I had to go start anew. Friends, car, my dog, fishing rods and even my medals and citiations I covet.
Now I find myself selling shoes, in a humid part of the nation which is filled with black folks who munch on chicken wings all the time. I am slowly relearning the southern mentality but I am able to do the things which were denied to me because I was being a mama boy to prevent WW3 from happening which happened anyways.
I can smoke and drink. Yes I love that. I am also able to drink in moderation without even the slightest need to get buzzed again to escape my circumstances. I drink for taste and to this day havent been buzzed unless but accident....which is almost never. of course my mom will tell me that its only a matter of time before I get back in the rountine of downing shot after shot but I dont feel the need nor the need to.
I go to florida sometimes to relax on a warm beach and fish or go visit family in the deep south and bass fish while smoking my pipe. Soul food never tasted so good and my gut is testament to that lol.
MY sister is remarkably better than I expected. Her and I fought so much in WA but now we manage to have a good relationship together and talk often and joke about anything. I never saw that coming. Who would of thought?
I now spend my days contining my resarch of military science, tobacco science and can be found at a local cigar lounge smoking Romeo Julietta while playing chess, watching the news or sipping persian tea while thinking about how far I have come in just several weeks. My debts are almost settled, I have a computer that I paided for and now am working towards a car and woking with my dad and step mom in finding a better job. I hope to start my own business.
To all my friends and family. You all have a place in my heart and I love you all. I will do my best to keep in touch and check up on you. I wish things were not as they are but such is life and I have to do what I have to do. I have alot of things I have to cope with now that I am away from a hostile enviroment which countless doctors were saying I should of left a long time ago. I love seattle and Washington but it has been a source of heart ache as much as joy.
So now I am back to the roots with my life. It remains to be seen what will become of
