A month or so back I had a succubus on me, I discovered. I was trying to get it off but it wouldnt stay off, so I panicked and actually checked myself into a psy hospital in case it wasnt mystic related. I did however after they tried to dope with me Trazadone which did nothing, I did wake up just a moment to see the creature on my lap. Looked like a strange cat with the head of a female humanoid. She had black hair, olive skin and I think her eyes were blue I couldnt see clearly enough to get it. But after some research apparently this is an "Egyptian" succubus as they saw the demons as such. She is still on me but is weakened at the moment, its hard though to fight it, she pumps me with the love drug, even her touch gives me a surge of the ecstasy. Ive been trying holy water with my spirit guides but it seems to be leaving slright marks that look like sunburns. But, I didnt leave anything to assumption so yea. This type I was told isnt out to drain my life force, she just wants to be my "girl friend." The creature doesnt understand yet that Im not into that. I want a women in the flesh.
I have tried all other rational explanations, even checked myself into a psy hopsital for 72 hours, they couldnt find any wrong mentally speaking. A roommate of mine, got up in the middle of the night and saw all the furniture shaking, he woke me up to tell me. We then got an orderly make "sure" and when she saw the beds shaking she got all wide eyed and again no one could explain anything. I then during one meeting demonstrated my telekinetic ability moving a checker across the table and again the doctors were surprised, they said all this was fueled by my psychosis. They had nothing to say then.
At this moment, no one still can explain why the use of holy water has caused minor red burns on my forehead and scalp. It never happened till now. This has been consistent with others who have been attacked. One night I started feeling pain in my back, I had a family member look and said there were two marks on my back, I asked what they looked like and she said like "love bites." A simply cleaning ritual with holy water and some lavender to add to the healing process was performed and a few days later we checked and it was as if they were never there! Again no one could figure it out and it didnt look like winter rash, never got that either.
So my friends, if you want to belive in inhumans AKA demons dont exist, thats fine, but just because you dont believe in them, doesnt mean they dont exist. My experiences and the lack of explanations that the professionals in the field who say Im having a break down all the proof I need.
The battle for rights and acceptance is far from over. Finally being gay or having an alternative lifestyle sexually speaking is gaining traction and well on its way to being totally accepted. However another battle remains and in this case will be far more difficult for even GLBT to comprehend. Mental Illness.
Tell me what do you think of when you think of someone who is mentally ill? Someone who sees the world in a different way or someone like Hannibal Lector? How about something in the middle? SO many ways to look at it and almost every time the uninformed and uneducated will have it wrong. Its like having a fear of spiders for humans fear and hate that which they do not understand.
Sadly it is not uncommon thinking for those who suffer from a mental psychosis to be barred from reproduction. Even those my age in the 20s and 30s have this Nazi way of thinking that it is the greater good that those who are ill and can genetically pass on these illnesses should be denied. Really what gives them the right? Who can dictate such morals? Is it so fair to believe that we must so alittle evil to achieve a greater good? Not in this case.
Because we seem to be in the business these days of educating and indoctrinating young and old into accepting those who are alittle different. We should hit the ground running on those who are ill in the head. The less enlighten need to be told that these people are quite functional and rational of course with some help. Its just like someone who has learning disabilities, they dont have a less than normal ability to learn they simply learn a different way.
So please take this moment and consider what I have said and realize that while we cant change the system as a whole it wouldn't take more than half an hour of reading on the internet to learn what it means to be mentally ill. Most of us are so functional as people that you wouldn't know we had anything unless we told you. Infact it is not uncommon for those who do suffer from mental illness or even disabilities to be superior in intelligence than those who are not afflicted.
Just a bit of advice for the ill: WHEN DATING EVER MENTION YOU ARE ILL. Wait until you have a relationship and it is solid and then bring it up. If he/she loves you like they say they do then they will see past that. So timing is right but at the same time dont wait until he/she finds your medicine and demands to know what you take it for. Chances are she thinks is from drug used for recreation and even worse if its something potent and he/she goes on the internet and finds out what they are used for and it can be too much a brutal truth to take in. No one needs to find out that a you may take a potent anti psychotic that at one point was thought to be a chemical lobotomy. They will be completely missing the fact that dosage can really show what the person has and how bad.
So please understand that while we may see and hear things that arent there. we may have a Christ complex or we may talk to ourselves or have strange ideas and even sometimes dont make sense; We are no different than any other and we are of sound mind as long as we admit we have an affliction and are getting help with it. We can be the most amazing people in the world like Winston Churchhill who was considered insane or even Albert Einstein who had the Aspbergers, the psychosis aliment on the autistic end. Accept us for who we are. You have accepted those with alternative lifestyles so take another step and accept us!
If you’re afraid of second-hand smoke, you should also avoid cars, restaurants…and don’t even think of barbecuing.
here are just some of the chemicals present in tobacco smoke and what else contains them:
Arsenic, Benzine, Formaldehyde.
Arsenic- 8 glasses of water = 200 cigarettes worth of arsenic
Benzine- Grilling of one burger = 250 cigarettes
Formaldehyde – cooking a vegetarian meal = 100 cigarettes
When you drink your 8 glasses of tap water (64 ounces) a day, you're safely drinking up to 18,000 ng of arsenic by government safety standards of 10 nanograms/gram (10 ng/gm = 18,000ng/64oz) for daily consumption.
Am I "poisoning" you with the arsenic from my cigarette smoke? Actually, with the average cigarette putting out 32 ng of arsenic into the air which is then diluted by normal room ventilation for an individual exposure of .032 ng/hour, you would have to hang out in a smoky bar for literally 660,000 hours every day (yeah, a bit hard, right?) to get the same dose of arsenic that the government tells you is safe to drink.
So you can see why claims that smokers are "poisoning" people are simply silly.
You can stay at home all day long if you don’t want all those “deadly” chemicals around you, but in fact, those alleged 4000-7000 theorized chemicals in cigarettes are present in many foods, paints etc. in much larger quantities. And as they are present in cigarettes in very small doses, they are harmless. Sorry, no matter how much you like the notion of harmful ETS, it’s a myth.
Greetings all,
Well I think its time I make a eval of my first 2 months back in GA. I have good feelings about my choice though I regret the circumstances in which it was made. In the end I still have many things to fix with myself and with family but I know for a fact I had to escape the situation I was in it it led to my heavy drinking and also my breif time in the hospital barely escape another stay at the grey bar hotel.
I havent lived with my Dad in almost 20 years, I moved away from GA at the end of the brutal 80s and now I find myself again here in 2009. IT was funny, I was thinking alot of GA before I moved and something told me I would end up here again.
I left WA because I was sick of being told what I could and couldnt do and who I could and couldnt see. I mean I couldnt even pick up a friend from a place I used to work at because she had no ride. YEa it was there car, but she was my friend and she needed help.
Plus my drinking was a problem. Downing shots of Jack and even when I was desprate shots of rubbing acohol mixed with soda before and being drunk a few times. Then I decided to go sober and for a month I thought all was good. Then came the last day, I got mad at my parentings grounding me for sticking up for myself because my mom was lecturing me about stuff I had already taken care off. I then damnage some property and then they call the police. I then get sent to a hospital because they couldnt put the bracelts on me because I didnt hurt any one. My dad then came and offered me a better life. Aginst my moms wishes I went. I left behind almost everything I had to go start anew. Friends, car, my dog, fishing rods and even my medals and citiations I covet.
Now I find myself selling shoes, in a humid part of the nation which is filled with black folks who munch on chicken wings all the time. I am slowly relearning the southern mentality but I am able to do the things which were denied to me because I was being a mama boy to prevent WW3 from happening which happened anyways.
I can smoke and drink. Yes I love that. I am also able to drink in moderation without even the slightest need to get buzzed again to escape my circumstances. I drink for taste and to this day havent been buzzed unless but accident....which is almost never. of course my mom will tell me that its only a matter of time before I get back in the rountine of downing shot after shot but I dont feel the need nor the need to.
I go to florida sometimes to relax on a warm beach and fish or go visit family in the deep south and bass fish while smoking my pipe. Soul food never tasted so good and my gut is testament to that lol.
MY sister is remarkably better than I expected. Her and I fought so much in WA but now we manage to have a good relationship together and talk often and joke about anything. I never saw that coming. Who would of thought?
I now spend my days contining my resarch of military science, tobacco science and can be found at a local cigar lounge smoking Romeo Julietta while playing chess, watching the news or sipping persian tea while thinking about how far I have come in just several weeks. My debts are almost settled, I have a computer that I paided for and now am working towards a car and woking with my dad and step mom in finding a better job. I hope to start my own business.
To all my friends and family. You all have a place in my heart and I love you all. I will do my best to keep in touch and check up on you. I wish things were not as they are but such is life and I have to do what I have to do. I have alot of things I have to cope with now that I am away from a hostile enviroment which countless doctors were saying I should of left a long time ago. I love seattle and Washington but it has been a source of heart ache as much as joy.
So now I am back to the roots with my life. It remains to be seen what will become of