aj's blog: "poetry"

I remember a time when you used to be there! You said you'd never go away! Why do uyou do things that hurt people Just make it stop and come back! I sit and pray youll come home come back to us Maybe we still can be a happy family Just make it stop and come back Chourus I was once daddies little girl Now what i am is just some stupid ass girl You said youd never leave But look at you now You lying piece of shit Why odnt you just make it stop Come back How come i never hear your voice How come i never smell you or feel you Why do you do the things you do Just make it stop and come back Now i sit all alone, on my bed No one understands, No one can come along and take your place They just wont understand Just make it stop and come back. Chorus When will you come back I just want you back You Just come back! said you'd never leave But where are you Now

You used to tear me down But now I will tear ou down You will no longer vontrol me You can't control my emotions anymore I WILL CONTROL YOU! You used to tell me you loved me Well now i know that your just a fucking liar You said youd never leave Well where are you now? Chorus You used to control my life Now i will control yours Your nothing to me just someone taking air I used to follow you, i used to idolize you But now... i laugh at you in your face! You will never control me again I WILL CONTROL YOU! I cut my arms made myself bleed for you not just for you .... because of you I have scars...Everyday i look at them Everyday it used to bring me down Now i look at my scars and realize what you did Now i can say i control myself 2 years has gone by and not a word 1 1/2 years has gone by and those were y our years 6 mnths has gone by no cutting no nothing! Im free from you and everthing you bring! Your too scared to call me talk or look at me What is your problem? Your scared that is your problem Im not daddys little girl anymore I am my own women and dont need yout You cant control me I CONTROL YOU Chorus You ued to control me my emotions, my life, my being but noow i control you your too scared You will never control me again You lying sack of shit I CONTROL YOU!

You are my life You are my soul, my ambition You are alwayz there for me Well i'm here for you Although life may seem hard, its not over it will never be over You must except things in life you dont want to But it is all part of the master plan I hope this guides you through your life choices Many people may wonder why you do the things you do. Many people may agree or disagree or just be uncertain But it doesnt matter what they think Its about what you feel is right in your special place Please dont make the mistake others have made dont let other people make decisions for you dont let other perople judge you it is just a waste of time! You should alwayz be yourself Because in the end that is what matters! Just know that im alwayz here for you NO MATTER WHAT!! and nothing will ever come between us!!! You are my life You are my soul, my ambition You are alwayz there for me well im here to say IM HERE FOR YOU!

Out with the old in with the new Isn't that what they alwyz say? What happens when you can't get over it? I mean the old. What if the old controls your entire life? What you do, what you feel Every aspect of your life How can you just be "in with the new?" You should be able to forget the old. But the old is your past, present, and future. It effects everything you do in life. From this day foward. But it takes time to forget the old. For me four long years, I have finally forgotten it all. It has no more control of my life! I can control my present and future I have control over my life. I don't need anyone to control me, I am in control! Out with the old in with the new Isn't that what they alwayz say?

One person and how many masks? Two, four, six, twenty? How many do we need? There is a mask for everyone. Your family, your friends, your partner and your peers But notice someting, There are all these masks but not one for you? Yes, even you have a mask Its the mask you should wear everyday around everyone , family, peers, friends, and your partner. The mask of you, the real mask Everyone has secrets Everyone wants to fit in, be someone's friend But it won't make you happy Maybe you should let someone be your friend If they want to be your friend They will be able to see through your twenty masks. So why hide your own personal mask? It doesn't make sense does it? Than listen to me when I say Throw away your twenty other masks. And keep the one, the real mask You will end up happier than ever! One person and how many masks? Two, four, six, twenty? NO, ONLY ONE MASK FOREVER!!

Ok y'all i made this in my fourth period today i looked up and saw the exit sign and made this lol it shitty but eh i was bored!! haha Exit, such a simple word Meaning to leave, go, and not come back. but its hard to "exit". You leave everone and everything You never look back? Have second thoughts? Honestly who can just " exit"? Even though the Exit is a few feet away it is those few feet taht are the problem You know, no one will be on the other side Waiting, to help you through. You have to make that jump Knowing everyone is behind you Yes, who knows maybe you will find someone But you have to take that risk That risk of knowing there might not be anyone You cant come back either To find support and that help The help you have alwyz had, to get thru. Exit, such a simple word Meaning to leave, go , and never come back. But its hard to exit

UCK LIFE, WHAT IS IT FOR WHY THE HELL ARE WE HERE TO JUST FUCK AROUND PISS PEOPLE OFF? OR TO FEEL HORRIBLE THRU IT ALL R WE HERE TO JUDFE OTHERS MAKE THEM FULL OF PAIN SO WE CAN FEEL GOOD ABOUT OURSLEF ISNT IT FUKED UP I MEAN YA WE WILL FEEL GOOD FOR A WHILE BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE WE STILL FEEL LIKE SHIT!! WE STILL THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING THATS WRONG N LIFE KNOWING IT WONT GO AWAY WE SAY SHIT WE SHOULDNT FEEL BUT DO NEWAYZ LIKE NOT FEELING LIKE YOUR GOOD ENOUGH WELL FUCK THAT YOUR GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYTHING AND EVERYONE SO WHY DO WE FEEL THIS WAY? CAN YOU TELL ME THAT? HOW DO WE GET BETTER? HOW CAN WE SAY WE LOVE LIFE NOT FUCK LIFE?! I DONT THINK WE CAN IT WILL ALWAYZ BE THERE WE CANT GET RID OF IT SO FUCK LIFE WHY THE FUCK AM I HERE!!!!???

it has been too long since i heard ur voice too long i think i used to love the sound of ur voice i used to love ur goofy smile i used to love ur eyes the way u used to talk to me about nothing i miss it all now i hear ur voice after all those years an dnow im in love im in love with the sound or ur voice im in love with ur goofy smile im in love with ur eyes and now i hope we can be the way we used to but more i cant wait the sad thing is is that ur leaving i dont know if ill be able to see u before u go i want to see u, let u know im here for u and will alwayz love u let u know when u get bak ill be here and will love u even more i hope someday we can be together and not be foolish like we were years ago i want to be with u i want to hold u i want to kiss u i want to laugh cry cuddle and make love tiwh u this is how much i want to be wit u this is how i feel about u twenty four seven i think about u never forgetting u i hope u feel the same if not just know i love u and i alwayz will NO MATTER WHAT!!

Happy mother fuckin birthday dad! I hope your fucking happy! At least I remember when it is October 17 and ur turning 36 How hard is that, at least i have the decensy to write or send a card! I can call you, you stupid asshole! But i choose not just to make you wait in agony Wondering if ur own daughter will call you. When that hone rings, Im sure that your face lights up You get giddy, and then u awnser, "Hello?" "Hey fucker this is Satan, coming to get your fucking stupid ass! "Now Ive come to get you, your going to burn in hell with me fucker!" Now dad, now dont you wish you called Wrote me a letter even? now you will spend eternity in hell. I nope you like it there, Im sure you will fin in great. Everone will love you there, unlike here on earth Where everyone hates your fuckin ass!!

What do we use our voice for? Telling one in we are in love with them? Yelling at people when they do something wrong? What about using it for spreading things? There are many diferent uses of our voices but people dont understand that You could spread the the word of religion you could sing aloud about ur feelings& hardships in you life. You can use your voice to scorn someone when they look at u wrong or say to a mother how cute her new born baby is you can give wisdom to one in dire need or tell one to screw off and mind their own buisness in the end though, your boice is everything next to your actions, your voice can dtermine the rest of your life you are able to say NO to peer pressure and yes to magnificent life choices you can say yes to your loved one whom asks for your hand in marrige you can use your voice to scream in pain or pleasure your coice is your tool to success many people dont appreciate their voice they take advantage of it and dont realize what they have when it comes to it you voice is you life decision maker so use it for good instead of using it to put people down