Br0k3nh3art's blog: "Poems"

You always said You would treat your kids the same Well you lied Every since she moved in you haven't had time for me It's always she has this She needs that Well I need something too I need your love You never make time for me You will for her Why is that It seems like you have no time for me anymore You tell me you will get me something I need You make plans for us to get it Then something of hers comes up We can't do it anymore You talk about me behind my back to her If you had a problem with me then tell me Don't have it so I hear it from her She gets made at me I will tell you You just say she is stressed Screw that All I ever watned was for you to love me Tell me that you love me now When you say it now I don't even believe it Can't you see I cry myself to sleep I'm stuck doing everything When you tell her that she has to help If I said because of you I have thought of ending it all Just because I don't seem like I'm important to my own mother Would that change you No it wouldn't Forget about using me I'm done with your shirt You call me a screw up That I will always be one I'll prove you wrong I will finish high school unlike you I wont get pregnate early in my life I'm going to college I'm going to get money and get my ass out of here don't come crawling to me when you need help I'll need help all my life because of you You ruined my life I don't think I want you in it All I ever wanted was Your love

Everyone hates me All they do is yell I hate my life Everyone wants me to leave Everyone hates me Why can't I have a normal life Why can't I ahve people who love me Don't cheat on me Everyone hates me Why live on threw life When no one likes you Everyone wants me to leave Everyone hates me It's hard to live on When no one loves you No one cares about you I hate my life Why can't it end I'm sick of everyone hating me Not liking me I hate my life It's time to end it

How do people live with all these emotions I can't stand them All they do is hurt you Or someone close to you I don't want it I don't like it Make it leave I feel cold in the heart I feel every emotion but happiness I don't want all these emotions They're taking over my life All I wanna do is cry I wann tell someone how I feel I can't since they will think I'm insain The worse feeling is not having someone to talk to They wont understand All I want to do is crawl up in a ball Cry all day long Can someone just help me Help me with all these emotions Can they make me happy I haven't felt that for some time I don't want it I don't like it Make it leave I feel so cold in the heart I feel every emotions but happiness I don't want all these emotions They are taking over my life

It's so hard to deal with everything The fact that you could be leaving I don't know how to react You were everything I had ever wanted You were everything I had dreamed of I didn't know I could feel this way Like I'm floating on the clouds When I'm with you nothing matters at all I've never been so happy in my life I've never felt so sure abotu something I know I'm sure about this I miss you I miss us I want it back I messed up with the fear The fear of you leaving With the sleepless nights The sleepless nights I know I messed up Knowing I let something so great slip away I wish you could forgive me Open your heart Let me back in I am willing to wait I'm willing to stay here for you I know I Messed Up messed up with the fear I have

You seem to know when I need someone You seem to know when it's the worst time to come in my life You seem to know when it's the best time to come in my life also times when I need a savior Times I need someone to tell me everything will be okay Tell me the things I need to hear You seem to know what to say You seem to know what to say to get me back Back in your life You seem to know what to say to make me forgive you To let you back in my heart Forgive you for all the pain you cause me You seem to know just when I'm at my weakest You seem to know when to jump in for the kill You seem to know the right things to say You seem to know that I would take you back Even after everything you have done to me what you don't seem to know I'm not letting that happen again

I like you so much I don't know what to do I hear you like your ex that means one thing I'm just a girl to het ger off your mind I haven't told you things The one reason I'm still here is because of you You are the only person that treats me good Treats me the way i should be all I want is to be in your arms To feel safe and warm I love when you smile at me I just don't know what to do I like you so much I can't live without you When I'm with you It's like the world is not around me

I know it's right I know it's ment to be I keep faliing head over heals for you More and more I don't have to worry i know you are falling too I know this is right I know it's ment to be This is suppose to happen I know you are right for me I know I care about you Youa re my dork I am your care bear I don't want to give up I want us to try again I know it's right daon't ask me how i just know I'm right for you You are right for me I just know it's right

The never ending sarrow The never ending pain All I ever do is dissapoint you I can't do anything right My past is creeping up on me My old ways look so nice the furture doesn't look so bright why is all this shit going odwn Right here Right now It knows I'm weak It knows I can't take many blows Before I just cave in Cave into my old ways It's the only way I know To make things feel right To make my pain leave I just can't stand Knowing my old ways are my only way out

That cold winter night Where the wind howled so loud You couldn't hear the shivering of the person right next to you The snow falling so fast Like a blanket covering the sky You couldn't see anything Even if it was in your face That cold winter night I stood outside and watched Hoping for my love to runde My heart turning cold My heart starting to hate him I knew deep down he wasn't returning He left me there That cold winter night To die for the love I had for him That cold winter night The roads so slick The ice covering them like icing on cake His car slide off that thick ice He died that cold winter night Fate would not let me die alone Alone for the love I had for him On that codl winter night

Those sweet things you said Telling me I was pretty Telling me you liked me Telling me you would date me Were all a lie A lite to get her jealouse To get her true feeling for you out I blame me for you hurting me I blame myself for letting you get to me I blame me for believing you I can't believe I let myself believe you Believed that you liked me That you really liked me That you wanted to date me It was a bunch of bullshit People wonder why i don't believe them when they tell me I'm pretty I am thin They want to date me It's becuase of assholes like you That use me Don't worry i don't hate you I hate me for letting you takde advantage of me like that For telling myself cry over this I blame myself