Shel's blog: "Poems"

Not a mark on it, how could it be? Has nothing touched it? Looking closer, not visible on the surface Can you see it? Yes that’s it, that is why its never been harmed. Protected from the world, hidden away. Enclosed in ice. The heart lays, cold and unfeeling Yet if you look at the face. What do you see? Laughter, smiles Gentle looks, desire? No wait look closer The eyes tell the story The loneliness, the fear A tear falls but who does it fall for? For her? No. For him? No. For a love lost? Hmmmm maybe, but no. The tear falls for the heart Unable to feel Loves touch. It beats and carries life but can not, Feel its own misery Waiting to feel the warmth in its caress Slowly it starts to melt And allow it to feel again Watch the eyes. See the spark? Kindle the fire with gentle true words. See the tear? They flow. Now free and caring Knowing it is safe to love. Realizing that the scars of loving Another wont break it, That it will be able to withstand time Why? You ask. Because of the love of the other heart is the same.

I've learned not to lead with my heart, but with my mind. I've learned the heart will lead you astray. I've learned to hide the feelings. I've learned to close the door, and to walk away.

Have you ever craved something so bad, that you just had to have it? Something within you saying I need it and I want it now? But yet you couldn't find the one thing that would end the craving. I had a day like that today, and nothing seem to satisfy me so I thought what do I want? Do I want a munchie? was it lack of sleep? Lack of sex? hmmmmmm maybe hahaha, but no that wasn't it. I sit back and think, close my eyes and see what images come to my mind of what I crave, I see images flashing before my eyes, a hand a thigh, a smile but its not my own they do not match me......I feel a calmness settle over me, and my cravings cease for a minute, but only until i open my eyes and they are gone. Now to have what I crave, to satisfy me..........only then all would be good...........

I surrender to the warmth, of your kiss To caress your cheek, you kiss my hand Just after one night, could you forget the bliss? Lying next to you I can feel your warmth That first made me long for you between my thighs Just after one night, you realized that you would, Could not again be happy, until you again heard my sighs. Shel

Who Am I? Who am I? In this vast world Of bleakness? A faceless person In the crowd. In this void That we call life All directions we take We end up in the same place We know not where We are to go Or what to do We all live in This giant facade Not knowing Who we can trust There is no one Out there We must rely Upon ourselves I depend upon No one but myself You cannot help me If I can not help myself Lord, I need the strength The strength to carry on Live one more day In hopes of a better Tomorrow Tomorrow if I see A brighter day I may still have The strength to Live my life Yet once again. Shel

This is pretty much a rough draft, just so I could get the words outta my head. Time spent with the one I believed I loved. Together yet apart Never really together Living a lie. I thought I could change if maybe. Maybe if I could just Love A little more for the both of us. It's gone, vanished Never really there. The Love I thought I once had for you. You making sure That it was Never Really Ever there. Stolen, My world Stolen, My everything. Invaded was my life By a parasite, That used glamour To disguise itself from me Hopeful and Hopeless Blurred into one. Both cannot exist in the same domain They cancel each other out. And what's left is a void Our paths can never again cross If they do, it would be a devastating Only one, maybe none would be left standing Among the ruins. Gone are you from my mind Cast out of my heart I have found A way to rid myself of you! My greatest victory shall be Your fall from that pedestal And I shall see it! And walk away with a smile. And say "Karma has made things equal" And my word of advice for you "Is to stay down, in that hell As you were never the man You thought you were." SE 080108