Not too tickled pink I LOVE my owner Fu ...'s blog: "poems"

Fuck that not anymore... never again... will anyone see the side me this is stupid and weak I fell for you... and u turned me way i am so sick of opening myself up to anyone U did not break me i havent even been put back together even if i wasnt im not giving u that satisfaction how can i let u go when ur the only one who comes back... i gave you all of me you threw me away thats okay! it was my fault i am the stupid one for ever thinking anyone could ever want me... my soul is empty....

cut it down to the bone this way there is no mistakes all the blood will flow and so will the tears u may think there is no one.. u may think no one cared but ur death ur pain has hurt others more than u because now ur dead, because now they have this void the lose of u....

I love you more than words can say I have found great joy and happiness being with you yet, i have also seen my worset fears come true You love your cocaine You love your booze Those are your poisons and you are mine I beg you to stop go on about how they are killing you well you are truly killing me For years your the one i wanted The one I compared most to But, now i have found a breath of life I do wish you could find yours too But, I can no longer hold your hand I can no longer be by your side. I am sorry i have failed you Sorry i wasnt stronger Maybe this is what they were all warning me and you about not the good but the hurt we will now feel and the hole that we will now have I didnt mean to break your heart but please dont cry I have done that enough for the both us Just remember the good times try to forget the bad but now its time to let each other go and know that it was love it was deeper and true then most will ever know but if we try to make it work then we both will die so goodbye my love if you cared at all then dont call me again because now i see what you are You are my drug and you are and forever will be ... My toxic love and i need to let you go for good

My timing is always bad. i dont know what to do... I want to explode out of my skin... for one moment,, i want to know what is so wrong with me... that no one wants to hold me sometimes thats all i need is a hug,, to be held and know its all gonna be okay i think if i had that i could sleep i havent sleep in weeks... its getting easier not to.. i dont have anything left to give. or at least no one wants it... ive played the game everyway to play even took a step back and stopped they come to show me everything i cant have i dont want to ever get close to anyone i cant meet anyone new ever again.. because i will care and lose as i always do

why does it have to be so hard? my father's words hurt more then the cuts ever could u all pull me from every direction i am breaking.. i gave my heart so freely i fear theres none left... i feel my words or now fake and meaningless... i cant cry and when i do im told to stop i am so alone... so empty... sick of being wrong sick of being shit i have to let go in order to grow so this means i leave everything or stay and fight.. and shrink away to nothing

i wish i could go back in time... when boys didnt matter.. when a dollar was the best thing in the world... and candy was always wanted instead of dinner your only fear was the dark the monster under your bed or your closet when things were easier before you knew heartbreak before you knew love outside your mom and dad i dont care the it is better to have loved and lost shit... is only said by those who have... i know this you cant have good without bad happiness without tears and everything happens for a reason so some people are meant to suffer and be all alone to show those with that they actually have it made