PITBULL's blog: "poems from my depression age lol"

I cry that my world has been torn apart This pain is a stake deep in my heart. Solitude is my only friend As I lay upon my tear soaked bed. Who could help me? Who could I tell? Will I survive this private Hell? All through the night I toss and turn I can't sleep My love I yearn! I wait for My Moon, my Sun & my Star! Wondering what they're doing or how they are. I cry until the night turns into day Still void of my love for another day. I'll wait for the sun to shine on me Until then . . . my life is so empty. This is the hardest time I've ever known I Wait . . . & I Cry For my love to come home!

Depression in so many It's always so sad to see The numbers are uncanny Just take a look at me So many in pain unseen As depression numbers rise Sometimes life can be so mean Just look into my eyes Afraid to go home Don't know how to deal You're feeling so alone This is how I feel People don't see what is under my skin They just see the outside, not whats within They dont seem to see the constant pain im in In the battle of emotions, depression will always win This time though the depression is too strong It has to be sudden, it can't take too long I look at my life and where it went wrong However hard i tried i could never belong Did they ever even see me? Notice i wasn't happy? Did they ever try to help me? No, their own problems was all they could see Now it all is over, the battle has been won All these years of torment ended by the trigger of a gun. Lying alone and silent, forgetting those torturous years I know all the crying is over as i lay peacefully in my crimson tears

Harsh words & violent blows

Hidden secrets nobody knows

Eyes are open, hands are fisted

Deep inside I'm warped & twisted

So many tricks & so many lies

Too many whens & too many whys

Nobody's special, nobody's gifted

I'm just me, warped & twisted

Sleeping awake & choking on a dream

Listening loudly to a silent scream

Call my mind, the number's unlisted

Lost in someone so warped & twisted

On my knees, alive but dead

Look at the invisible blood

I've bled I'm not gone, my mind has drifted

Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted

Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow

Today's just yesterday's tomorrow

The sun died out, the ashes sifted

I'm still here, warped & twisted

Am I to be happy? I dwell so deep within myself that I have never seen the light of day. The past never happened, the future will never come, and the present isn't real. Depression is a part of everyday life. The birds chirp for someone else, The day warms the lives of everyone, but me. Happiness lies near, but my mind won't let my heart reach for it, and happiness never knew. I live in a prison, solitary confinement. Fear is my guard. Nothing stops happiness from reaching me, only me from it. I am sure that if I can ever grasp it that the barrier will be forever shattered. How do you break through invisible bars? What is it like to touch something you've never had? I am confined to myself, Just me and my sadness.