Semper Fidelis's blog: "ENVY"

  Problems

I can't escape the drama

Even though I try

I can't escape the pain

It's etched too deep

I just hear screaming

I try to block it out

I just want it to stop

Nothing is working

The yelling echo's in my thoughts

I turn my music up louder

They say it not my fault

I know they are lying

I want to leave this life

And never come back

The needles go through my skin

Piercing away the pain

The cuts bleed

I feel better

A razor through my skin

Releases my anger

I lay my head back and close my eyes

I hope that I don't wake up

I am sick of causing people pain

I should just disappear

The hurt in my heart

Just can't be numbed

I take a drink

That's only a temporary fix

Maybe a few more will help

I look to strangers for comfort

They don't care about my pain

My anger gets the best of me

I punch a wall

My broken and bloody knuckles numb

I act like nothing is wrong

I sit in the corner knees to my chest

Crying black tears

Blood dripping from my hand

Not caring whether I live or die

My life flashes before my eyes

Am I dead yet?

I hear people crying for me to come back

I run further away

My body goes limp

I have finally disappeared