Faust Fledgling to Fatal Member of Domu...'s blog: "Pieces Of Me....."

I know I'll never walk again with you

Never gonna fly as high as I did

There is no comfort to be found in my eyes

My arms are cold and numb

Look inside and all you see is pain and lies

I'm not afraid anymore

Now is the time to seek the final adventure

I have passed the point of conversation

In my life I have said and done a great many things

Very little am I proud of

I've been dead and cold for years now

Seems it's time for my body to catch up

I don't know when I lost my will

I do know that I'm sick of the pain

The pain I suffer and cause

There is little if anything left for me here

All I am is a mask

A sideshow for the amusement of the audience

This sick sad puppet is yours no more

My strings are cut as I lay lifeless in the corner of the room

The painted smile has chipped and cracked

Now the world sees what lies beneath

Let them see

Maybe they'll look inside themselves more often

I always wanted to leave a mark on the world

The mark I leave is a gaping wound

Soon to be a jagged scar on a falsely beautiful face

Some things in this world have no explaination or excuse

My life is one such thing

I've burnt myself at both ends for too damned long

Some would call this desperation

I prefer to call this a solution...

Shatter me

Break my bones

Black my eyes

I need more

Nothing else can satisfy

I don't want it

I know I need it

Shut me down

Let me drift away

Give me what I crave

I'll take it from you

I've become so numb

I have to feel something

Spoon fed pain all my days

The suffering is all I know

Put the screws to me

Scar my soul

Leave me as you found me

Confuse and blind me

Hate me with a smile

Kick me when you have me low

"She maketh me to lie on a bed of nails..."

Born behind the sun

Out of shadow we have come

We run together in twilights glow

Family is too weak a word

We live beyond the kin of man

We three are united forever by blood and love

This dark trinity is what I choose

Blood runs thicker than water

We are bound by sanguine dreams

I long to feel your love stinging me

Together forever in our Embrace

Three united as one

"Beatus Is Domus"

I've spent every waking moment trying

Striving to find the right way

I've always tried to stay in line

Fought so hard to keep it straight

I've slipped up so much

Torn my past to pieces

I've done the best I could

Been beaten at every step

My world crashes at every bend

I am my own worst enemy

I know I'll never forgive myself

I long to live forever in a land of make believe

I pray that the rains come soon

Flood away all the ugly that lays dead behind me

I shudder at the thought of another hollow hero

A shallow savior, come to pull me free

All I believe is a lie

Tearless, all I wanna do is cry

I'm treading water

Sinking slow under this weight

Drag me deeper but stay close

Stay there with your head down

You are so precious to me now

Broken, bruised and shattered

See me here in pain

Bring me the comfort of your thorns

Its not enough, I need more

Show me I can bleed and smile

You know I can't resist

Slide your claws into my flesh

Hold me tight and keep digging

Bring me to the surface

Bury me neck deep in the dirt

Deliver pain and pleasure as one

Give me all or nothing...

I've burned my share of bridges

Gained more habits than I've kicked

All these things I consider each and every day

I sit alone and make my plans to leave

I'll take what pain I can when I go

I've hammered my shame deep into you

I'm losing my will to carry this load

My solution is my new resolution

Every rejection a waste

All I have is my pain

I'm giving up

I can't do this alone

My grip is failing

I am lost here in the dark

I am nobody in my mind

Losing more and more each day

I'll just sit here and fade away

Don't worry I'm here

You can sleep now son

Ain't no nightmare gonna get you

I'll hold you close

Keep you safe from the other ones

Protect you from the evil ones

Quiet your mind and rest assured

Your boogey men have no power here

I'm here to clear out all the shadows

No more monsters under your bed

I can't promise you the world

All I can do is swear to keep you warm

Save you from the evil that men do

The world is a nasty place

I'll always be by your side

I love you baby boy...

So damned tired of doing whats right

 Forced to take the pills they give

 Too much time spent balancing on eggshells

 One wrong step cursed to their wrath

 My time and actions dictated by so many

 Choking on the ashes of what I was

 Automated everyday

 Who pulls the strings on this puppet

 Born to live and die as they say

 Why can't I fly into the sun and burn

 So much time wasted for others

 Tripping through a day by day

 I long to break these ties that bind

 Need to remove the mask that blinds me

 Unchain this marionette

 I don't wanna be the misused toy anymore

 All this may be wishful thinking

 Torn between angels and demons

 Free me to live or die as I choose

Forgotten things remembered

Blasphemies revealed

The written word shows my pain

I laugh now to hide the tears

The jokes on you all

I hereby recommend incarceration

A straight jacket may do me some good

Better trapped inside a cell than inside myself

Insatiably insane

Incurably ill

I'll keep my demons inside, thank you

Can't decide to live or die

Maybe I'll outlive you all

Hell, I could be gone tomorrow

Who cares, just let it be

No prison is as strong as the one we build for ourselves

I spent so long waiting

Sat here each and every night

Your silence screamed at me

I saw your face, it haunted me

I can't remember how you laughed

I could never hide from you

You always saw my pain

Your broken wings once sheltered me

I sit and think of the times we shared

You were once my faith

Made the world a stage for me to scream

I once asked you to heal me

You walked away from us

Why did I wait so long

Because someone I once loved asked me to...