Faust Fledgling to Fatal Member of Domu...'s blog: "Pieces Of Me....."

In the wake of all that is I see what was

I see every sorrow chiseled on all the graves

As I cease to be I open my eyes

Just when this cold seeps in I awaken to mistakes

I know full well what it is that I've done wrong

Now I can scream as I fall

I can feel the curse of mortal limits

Knew what it was to end before I even began

Took the weight of my world before my legs could walk

I've seen love come and go, and come again

Do I truly know how to return the love thats given to me

I feel so numb from the neck down

Walking in my life is like swimming through wet cement

I feel the need to stand stock still

As I move forward I see all I desire slip out of reach

Perhaps I should charge full steam to the end

It's possible that a new beginning will set this right

Isn't it...?

I'm broken by the world in which I live

Torn to shreds by those I hold dear

I've never asked much from this life

A sinple, yet powerful moment

Pure love given and returned

Should I beg

Could I borrow

Should I steal

Would I kill to keep my soul intact

What is left to salvage

These few shreds of a tattered life

These remnants of what could have been

Should I pay this cost

The cost of one mans soul...

Beware the demons eyes

Though his charms may be hard to resist

Beware gifts from clawed hands

Though they glitter and shine

Beware his fanged smile

What he offers will bring only pain

Beware the forked silver tongue

Sweet words can poison your soul

Beware the picture he paints

Lift the veil on the lies you may not see

Beware the path you tread

Pitfalls await you

Beware the demons lies

He seeks to draw you in

Beware...

She has inspired me to change my world

To make what was wrong right again

She came to me on the winds

Took my breath away

She picked me up when I was down

Held me as I was afraid

Kept me warm as I shivered

Made me look at myself and see what she saw

Sang to me a song of love

She came and forced away the monster inside me

Tore away the ugliness and showed me the man inside

She gave without taking

Smiled with me through my tears

She waited for me and called to me through the flames

Forever with me in all that I am

As day becomes night I know she'll be there

Ever ready to hold me close and chase away my demons

She told me once "You are not alone"

I know that now

My Bright Angel calls my name....

Lost in a moment of sinful pleasure

We need this to come together

Rise so high as we slip away

Fingers on flesh can change so much

Such an undeniable delimma

To give and take

Share to breathe

Give a touch to feel

I can help you change

Balance our pain with confort

Relax...this won't hurt a bit

Sweat with me

Bleed for me

Take me with you through the spiral gate

Meaning is found within the meaningless

Show me how we belong together

Help me see the pleasure in my pain

Brush the dust from my stale heart

I've taken so much abuse it makes me smile

Thrust my fist into the wall because I like it

Find the path of least resistance

Unsettled by pain I feel when there is no pain

Hurting makes me whole

I've become infected with this need for blood

Smash me to pieces to show me you care

Burn out my eyes

Lash me down to the whipping post again

I beg for sin to justify my ways

I walk this broken road a battered man

I fall to zero

I've lost control

Hurt me...

Welcome friends... My name is...

What do you wish it to be?

Sorry about the dark

Seems we've forgotten to pay our bill again

Watch your step...

Let me show you around the place we call home

To your left is our memory room

Sorry for the mess (I've been meaning to clean it)

Off to your right is the playroom

My roommates love to play their games there

Whats that? My roomies? oh yea...I'm sorry

Come this way...lets see if they're busy

Ah, here we are... Meet the twins... Craven and Draven

They're a little...dissociative

They don't care for eachother much

Don't worry, They're harmless...I think

Moving on... Let me introduce This One... Call him Legion if you prefer

He is...interesting...

Whatever you do don't let him see you cry

Shall we continue?

Why are you shaking?

They can't hurt you as long as I'm here...

Shall we?Don't worry, tours almost over...

One last roomie

Careful...don't touch the door

It hates people to touch Its door

This thing we all call The Pet...

Please...keep your hands and fingers back

Sorry, precautions must be taken with It...

Last person who got touchy didn't like it much

 If I remember correctly there was blood involved

 Not his blood either...

This "Pet" is by far the least social of us all

Personally I think he's psychotic...shh... Gotta be quite around It

Well...Thats us in a nutshell, lol...

Nutshell, Crazy house...get it?

No? Ok...bad joke...sorry

Thats the end of it...let me walk you out

Sorry again about the lights...

Wait...no, not so close to It's door... Wai...What...Oh God!

Not another one...what a mess...

Now what the hell did I do with that mop...?

Where are you tonight?

Gone away to some better place

You were called away from us

 We weren't ready for you to go, goodbye

 We will remember the love shared

 Together we laughed, smiled, and cried

 Forever in our hearts you are

 Immortalized in our memory

 You will never be forgotten

 We smile when we hear your name

 Gazing at old photos, we remember the past

 We will all be together again in time

 You give us strength to continue

 It's not easy to be without you

 We will keep you with us always

 Inside, your memory warms our souls

 "To Be Remembered Is To Live Forever"

Do not stand at my grave and weep,

 

I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,

 

I am the softly falling snow.

 

I am the gentle showers of rain,

 

I am the fields of ripening grain.

 

I am in the morning hush,

 

I am in the graceful rush

Of beautiful birds in circling flight,

 

I am the starshine of the night.

 

I am in the flowers that bloom,

 

I am in a quiet room.

 

I am in the birds that sing,

 

I am in each lovely thing.

 

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

 

I am not there. I do not die.

They say time heals all

I know this is all a lie

So many ways to placate the afflicted

Pour your poisoned honey into our ears

The truest delusion is self delusion

We all blind ourselves to the ugly in this world

We tie our own hands

Open your eyes and see the real world

There is no bright and shining sun

The flowers are all dead

Trust is simply a way to bare your throat to wolves

I see clearly now in my cancerous view

Hold no one close lest they stab you deep

A helping hand will only pull you down

Commiserate in misery

I've wasted every chance and hurt you all

Somehow sorry just isn't enough

The best thing you can all do is to forget what was and is

I spend so much time in the shadows

Maybe it'll be better if I just go to sleep

Kind words are threats in disguise

A smile bares the teeth that bite

A simple wave draws your victims near

I'm convinced that there is something wrong with me

Consciously conscience deprived

I'm so very weak

Maybe I should sleep

See you all when I wake again...