Faust Fledgling to Fatal Member of Domu...'s blog: "Pieces Of Me....."

Before I go just let me say...

I never wanted to hurt you

I gave everything I had

Looks like it wasn't enough

Did I ever truly make you smile?

Others are always asking why

Why did I even try?

I'm done with the pain

Maybe someday we'll meet again

Things may be different then

How often do I cross your mind?

I never could stand to see you cry

I'm gone today

I'll leave a smile for you

I don't belong here in your world

This is my final declaration

I feel I've slipped too far

I don't even want to fight

I cant be the strong one

Just let me fade away...

 

 

I'm not the man you think I am

Never gonna be the man you all hoped i'd be

Grown hollow in this place that I call home

When every breath we take is a dying wish

We lose all dreams of carrying on

What does it take to be

To believe in the man that you see

I hope one day I can see

See what it takes to be real

I sicken myself with shadow games

Disillusion does me no good

Hold my hand and help me through

Keep me close in these dark days

 

Dirty little secrets shrouded by dirty little lies

You thought you were a good man

Seems the poison inside has been set free

Try to remember what you used to be

Don't come to me seeking salvation

I don't have it in me to be that man

Don't come to me for answers

I have none to give

I care not for what makes you suffer

I pray you find the Jesus you seek

I must maintain my objectivity these days

It is not my place nor pleasure to have an opionion

Fly high or fall hard as you will

 

My soul erased I won't resist Erratic mind Poison embraced A dying God-man Full of pain Suffer eternally Burn internally Suckle from disease Corpus Christi Forgivness sought Beg to serve Punish me Can't take this Want your touch Sick psychosis I'm the bad one The good one The sick one The smile A tooth that bites A vein that bleeds Cuts like a knife I hide because I see I see whats inside me I am so much I hate I could care less Born dying each new day My image burns away Psychopathic ways Questioning my reason I'm losing the race Losing face Excuse what you see Can't find the door Life and lies on trial Beat me with the verdict Smash my spine Hate me Pull my wings away Let me go I wanna slip I am the snake The tongue that takes Burn me with the sun Blow me away

There is a world hidden under what we see A land of shadow and deceit Home to the lies we all deny I have seen such a place It is inside us all It waits patiently within The lies seek to poison us We all have a shade here The side of ourselves we refuse How can we never admit to this place Ignorance is bliss they say We are born to deny the darkness within Why distance ourselves when we can embrace it To understand one must first accept

Tattoo your name upon my tainted heart Brand my soul with your face I am a sick man (Monster) I know I don't belong here Keep my secrets till your grave Hold my shame close to your heart Help me be the better man Shelter me when I'm lost Build me up when I get torn down Cage this beast inside me Remake me as I should be Be the mistress of my new destiny Be my cover when the storms hit Join me on this Blessed Hellride...

So sick of these screaming voices Telling me how broken I seem to be Faceless frauds Live your life just to tear me down Tell me you wish I had died Smile out your one face Lie straight out the other You won't be near me Look into the face of your fear You damage me because I'm what you'll never be This monster I am I suffer with what you've planted in me Fill me with all you hate Slap me down when I get too high Rip the ground from beneath my feet I will cut myself free of you all Self serving hypocrites I will burn out your disease If it takes me to my own end You will not see me fall again

I'm such a danger to myself Just think what I could do to you Do unto others before they do unto you Burn down the world just to keep warm I am the unclean The cast off that you've thrown away Less than the sum of my parts The storm of thorns grows I'm torn by what they have done Crushed down like Atlas I am the surrogate sin The bastard child you fail to see I've sufferd for your freedom Died for your lies Unstable grounds support my world Too many bloody battles fought So sick of the copper scent I hope you're happy with what you have done You have broken me You win...

I can't even remember what it was like I've forgotten so much The past has become clouded for me now How can I learn from mistakes I cannot see A summers day holds no joy for me The breeze whispers to me no longer I am now and forevermore encased in ice Condemnation is mine I long to feel my blood move again Seek to warm limbs long immobile Shake the foundations of my life Carry me to a new day I've fought for so long Destined to die alone Everything I could have been Reaping all the tears I've sown Now I walk these streets as one All apologies I could give Words pale in the face of what is Solace I will find Solitude is mine...

Come to me in the night Speak my name and set me free Cast off the stones of your past Step across the bridge and begin life anew A touch is all I need Taste the future with me Hold me close as we move together This new world is a scary place New wonders to face Horizons to crest As one we will watch the sun rise and set Together You and I will watch the world burn We two will be reborn as one Let the chips fall and arrows fly We shall face all that is and will be So much strength found in the joining of two Hand in hand we will walk Together we shall travel through many gates The end we shall face with a smile Together...