David's blog: "Personal gripe..."

I have come to terms about the loss of my children n my failed marrage. that should be the end right there, Right? well thats not true. I have found more to me. I can't stand the thought of me being happy... Its just disturbing to me at all levels. If I let my guard down I might get stepped on again. 2 lovers and many ex friends later, I just can't stand the thought of getting close to another.Yeah people might argue that thats not the way to go. But in this past year all I have learned from people is that everyone has a price and they want more. I ended up being homeless again cuz of that crap. Then my moms house started on fire and she had to basically work as a slave for a man she thought was her friend. I just can't seem to let my guard down to anyone. I am just to jaded...