About me

A lil about me so people can know something of me. Well my name is David, I was born june 18th 1975. I am a Gemini true and true. Airheaded and sometimes a lil exsentric. I am a poet by nature. my poetry reflects the inner me. I once had a twin, that was my father who passed from this world back january 10th 2008. He was born june 17th 1950, Yes, we were born 25 years and 1 day apart. I let my emotions rule me at times, even if I don't want them to.

I have a hard time connecting to some people, If I feel pressured in any way I will withdraw and hide myself. I am a Divorcee. I was married for 13 years, Leagaly for 15 but I don't count the last two years because we were seperated at that time. I have two very beautiful daughters, but haven't heard or seen them since june 26th 2006. I would like to rant and bitch about my former marrage, but I have to take blame for not making it work... I couldn't change until it was too late...

I had a massive embolic stroke that had killed 3 parts of my brain, Right frontal loab, right temperal loab, right side of my ceribrial cortex. but that was august 17th 2005. I have almost compleatly recovered, except for parts of my long term memory and sometimes my short term memory is still shot. I am too giving, I care too deeply, When I love someone i want to be with them and only them.

Its hard for me too connect because I have a condition that seperates me from my past. I have memories, but emotionaly I can't seem to grasp. All I can remember to feel is pain. I remember the loss of my children like it was yesterday. that still weighs heavy on my phsyche... But I have lost the important memories of them. I can't remember there voices or how it use to be. I don't even remember my ex wifes face or her voice... just random things now n then...

I have a real hard time showing my emotions... thats a real mood breaker. I have lived in this piss hole of a town for almost my entire life. I have to admit since my ex leaving me I have really gone out of my mind. I am like a child wondering in the darkness. I have only had 3 relations since the end of my marrage. but I have learned sex isn't everything. you learn to live without it. its a far cry from my youth.

I struggle like every person now a days. I put on my fake smile to please everyone. the things I have done in my past i'm not proud of them, but I take responsability. I may not know the man I see in the mirror but he is me none the less. I am who I am suppose to be. I humble myself to everyone. I have nothing to hide. I am just a man who is trying to find his way in this god forsaken world.

I am a friend, but I wont sugar cote anything if it comes down to it. I have had to learn thst being to soft people will step on you. amd no matter how muvh you feel for someone, you can't force them to feel the same way for you. you just have to pick yourself up and get on with your life. time doesn't heal all wounds. if you have anger and hatred in your heart, it will soon consume you. a lesson i am still learning.

I wonder how the future will treat a man with no real past? thats all for now. nice too meet you and hope you don't think me too mad for this. Have a great day. :),