I'm okay. His anger is not. Sometimes he can be sweet. Most times he can't be. My heart mislead me into believing I was ready and he was ready. Right now we're just friends. I'm trying to keep it at that. I have intimacy issues. He has anger issues. He said he was sorry after we were play fighting and he pushed me into the ground. He didn't mean to hurt me. I know he didn't mean to hurt me. We play fight all the time. He's not as patient as I need for him to be, but... he's better to me than my mother..... than my sister.... than my father are to me. I'm not saying it's okay. It's not okay. For now I'm in a relationship with myself and he's in a relationship with himself. We're just friends right now. It might end up staying at just that and only that. Only time will tell. He needs counselling and I need to feel safe around him. Until then, we're just friends.
