Today is November 29th 2006 1 year from your death. This is the day i got the dreadful call from my sister.Then phone call that would tare me upinside the call that told me you were gone .I didnt wanna answer cause i knew deep down in my heart that you were gone but not fogotten .I guess i prepard myslef for that call for the past few days preparing myslef for the day you would finnaly let go and go home to god no more suffering no more hurttin no more pain finnaly sleepin . Finnaly resting you dont know how much it kills me inside to see that your gone . I can't even put in words to tell you i'm hurting so bad inside that your gone.But a place deep inside me is still alive with your memorys ,your smile,your eyes how they lite up ,your touch,your smell. Uncle johnny i wish to god you did'nt let go .But then again i am more at ease you did you for 3 years been fighting that canser that came back you were hidding it from us so we didnt worrie then when you finnaly told us it was too late to help you . I know deep inside when were letting go.But you didnt wanna go so soon you wanted to stick around to see us one last time to spend one last dinner with us to spend your last moments with us. I left you an angel on ur grave with a bell i ring it everytime i need you everytime i miss you .I visit you pretty often leaving you angels, flowers, and your flags for serving in the war.Everytime i pass by your grave it kills me i am not going to lie it kills me inside to stop there but it is your new home and i can not do anyhting about it but all i keep inside my heart is that day the day that when its my time to go i know you will be there at the pearly white gates to let me in so untill then ill kepp u alive in my mind and in heart i love you and time will tell......
