Rob the Azzhole's blog: "about me"

I went and saw my friend yesterday at the hospital still no real change in him. I noticed not many people have been coming in to see him, I ask the nurse aides every time I go in to see him how is he doing has he had a lot of visitors and they tell me other than me not many. Even though it hurts me to see him that way and I don’t like hospitals I try to go everyday to see him hoping there will be a change but now they are talking about putting him in a nursing home. So it seems now that he is no longer useful everyone in his life family and friends are ready to put him someplace out of sight and out of the way and life goes on. I just hate the situation I pray but nothing changes it just looks like this is the way things are going to be.

I went and saw my new neurologist yesterday afternoon after looking over all my records and talking to me she wants to send me to a epileptologist, I am like ok then she tells me the ones she was thinking about sending me too was in either Kansas City Mo. or Springfield Mo. because I don’t drive she was asking me about transportation. I told her I could work it out she said they would have to drop you off and then pick you up a week latter. I don’t like staying overnight in the hospital for a test. I don’t like people sometimes my moods can be fucked up and I like to be able to get away from people when I feel like it. I am 6’5” and 245 pounds when I get pissed I can do it right. So a lot of the time I stay to myself, the idea of being stuck on a floor of a clinic where they are watching me and doing a bunch of test and I can’t leave I just don’t like. Plus it’s over a hour drive from where I live and I would be on foot. I am just going to have to cowboy up and deal with it I have a few weeks while they are setting it all up.